i did it i did it i did it~ ahahahh not mis-packing anything at work.. and i actualli took initiative to ask the pharmacist to let me follow them down to the wards to take a look at what they do~ and it was juz a short trip, but i learn a whole lot of stuff~ the pharmacists are realli helpfUL~ i even saw the prison ward, ICUs, psychiatric ward, normal ward.. cOOl~ i gonna bug them to take me down again tml.. this is amazing.. yeaH~ initiative! =D
Friday, January 28, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
iF oNLy i caN a tiny weenY bit more less *TU TU TU TU TU*(the sound that u hear on TV when pple scold vulgar lang.) forgetful, blur and careless
OMG.. what did i do at work again today.. I PACK THE WRONG MED AGAIN!!.. why?? my aim for the day was.. "BECAREFUL... check CAREFULLY..so won't pack wrongly again.. make gd impressions!" happily the whole morning i didn't receive any complains~ but juz before i run off for lunch.. i hear the pharmacist shout "WHO PACK THIS ONE!?!?" then i was like "oh noooo..." hahah turn out to b me.. pack the wrong strength of med.. AGAIN..luckily the pharmacist very nice to me lah, somemore teach me how to take extra caution.. never scold me...not my first time liao... firstly there was the time of Warfarin.. 1mg and 5mg i think.i pack wrongly, then another time is the different type of inhalers...remember he say "Miss ah... pple cannot inhale solution, look properly next time" woops =P it may seem to b a small prob to ya lah.. but in my mind, i think a pharmacist cannot afford any small mistakes like this, can kill one u noe.. i shall improve~ imperfection is not an option!!! wahahah...i going crazy lah.. my aim shall carry over to tml!! or shld i say later in the morning!!
work is kinda routine.. .9 reach work, hear announcements for the day, go back up to pharmacy, feel like machine... open med box, throw med out, pack in 10s, put back in box, refill, pack med for patient..blah until lunch 2pm, finally enjoy the sensation of sitting... 3pm, end of lunch, back to machinery work, 5.30pm released!! but i muz b more careful~ FOCUUUSSS...
had lunch with sc at eastpoint today.. wanted to eat the prata~~ but in the end i in a hurry to rush back to work so failed.. so FrI shall try again~~ hahah... heard she transfering over to raffles outlet for her shop.. then i sad case liao loH.. no one pei me eat lunch. but i think it's a gd chance for her to move~
all my post very random.. suddenli juz hav urge to blog.. so juz write down wad comes to mind.. hahah forgive me for the messiness~
next this came to my mind.. i alwaes say i lazy do this, lazy to that.. actualli.. is it realli i so lazy ah.. sometimes i think i juz use lazy as excuse loh or not juz me lah.. dun u think? laziness is like useful in a huge range of subjects.. useful laH~.. i muz try to b less lazy.. or mayb try to b lazy to be lazy (like wad the heck am i tokinG??) i lost my train of thoughts.. next day remember then continue...
juz wanna make clear here that yesterday wad i posted on my blog, was not out to make pple that were involved in that "incident" to feel guilty... the person i hate the most is juz yu zheng, which seem to hav headed the whole thing.. well, at least the whole event on the day of happening.ok.. i need to stop. depressing stuff eh.. i juz realise one thing or mayb two,i never did.
1) thank sc. thank you very much. 2 times it happen, 2 times u were involved, but then somehow, i alwaes felt u were caught in the middle. u showed me the brighter side of my world
2)thanks for all pple who were involved. for allowing me to realise the darkness of the real world at such a young age. u let me realise exposing yaself makes u vulnerable, and how pple can smile so bright in front of ya, tap on ya shoulder, be ya best friend and on their mind devising some plot or wadeva. thanks.
and after writing these 2 things. i realise i stil haven learn my lesson yet.. omG. ah stil got lesson 3) never believe in "it's for ya own gd." *puke* ya like real.. well at least dun even bother to mention that 5 word to me. =P
YEAH! mind cleared~ time ta go zzz~ if not tml cannot work weLL~ jia you pple and to myself toO! ;D
work is kinda routine.. .9 reach work, hear announcements for the day, go back up to pharmacy, feel like machine... open med box, throw med out, pack in 10s, put back in box, refill, pack med for patient..blah until lunch 2pm, finally enjoy the sensation of sitting... 3pm, end of lunch, back to machinery work, 5.30pm released!! but i muz b more careful~ FOCUUUSSS...
had lunch with sc at eastpoint today.. wanted to eat the prata~~ but in the end i in a hurry to rush back to work so failed.. so FrI shall try again~~ hahah... heard she transfering over to raffles outlet for her shop.. then i sad case liao loH.. no one pei me eat lunch. but i think it's a gd chance for her to move~
all my post very random.. suddenli juz hav urge to blog.. so juz write down wad comes to mind.. hahah forgive me for the messiness~
next this came to my mind.. i alwaes say i lazy do this, lazy to that.. actualli.. is it realli i so lazy ah.. sometimes i think i juz use lazy as excuse loh or not juz me lah.. dun u think? laziness is like useful in a huge range of subjects.. useful laH~.. i muz try to b less lazy.. or mayb try to b lazy to be lazy (like wad the heck am i tokinG??) i lost my train of thoughts.. next day remember then continue...
juz wanna make clear here that yesterday wad i posted on my blog, was not out to make pple that were involved in that "incident" to feel guilty... the person i hate the most is juz yu zheng, which seem to hav headed the whole thing.. well, at least the whole event on the day of happening.ok.. i need to stop. depressing stuff eh.. i juz realise one thing or mayb two,i never did.
1) thank sc. thank you very much. 2 times it happen, 2 times u were involved, but then somehow, i alwaes felt u were caught in the middle. u showed me the brighter side of my world
2)thanks for all pple who were involved. for allowing me to realise the darkness of the real world at such a young age. u let me realise exposing yaself makes u vulnerable, and how pple can smile so bright in front of ya, tap on ya shoulder, be ya best friend and on their mind devising some plot or wadeva. thanks.
and after writing these 2 things. i realise i stil haven learn my lesson yet.. omG. ah stil got lesson 3) never believe in "it's for ya own gd." *puke* ya like real.. well at least dun even bother to mention that 5 word to me. =P
YEAH! mind cleared~ time ta go zzz~ if not tml cannot work weLL~ jia you pple and to myself toO! ;D
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
2005!! -- Part (II)
hahah~ ok.. i'm sorry.. being late to blog...shall pick it up frm where i ended
i shall try and blog in much of wad i remember frm yr start...
it wasn't a gd start lah..my gd tempered dad threw a tantrum on 1st jan...shall not further write why.. cos it's realli bad when my dad loses his temper.. so me and my mom juz went outta the place.. and went ard shopping for abit.. ate then went back home.. where the mood kinda died down.. and it's ok again.. but i realli hate to see him lose temper.. sO sCary.
next thing i remember is.. hahah. .go my cousin house play game and read comics~ routine lah...
then later in the wk when to celebrate my grandpa's bdae in the HK jockey club(a place where onli rich pple get to eat there!!) obviousli is not me family that's so rich lah.. my aunt's husband is totalli rich loh.. heard my mommy say.. her whole yr salary probably only equal to wad he get for one month.. like OMG.
before i left HK went out quite a bit with Winnie (my very first rmmate in aus, and proudly to say, my future rmmate!!), went shopping lah crap ard lah.. hahah one thing i find she damn cute is that when we go shoppin hor.. she is looking for things for me to buy.. hahaha.. go into clothes shop hor.. me still lookin then she will come to me with this stack of clothes and excitedly say to me "esther esther.. try this and this and this.. i think shld look quite nice on you~~ go go..."hahah...
aniwae.. yea.. came back and rot for a wk... n at the same time looking for something to do~
firstly i went back to dhs, to visit teachers~ mostly tan jan fee lah.. cos without her.. i couldn't hav made it to aus (results-wise...) cos my prelims result sucked.. big time... and after that went to ka chow sc's comp train~ hahah i stil cannot forget my love for home nursing (i seeing disgusted faces of sc and others who share hatred for home nursing hahaha)...
me also wrote down my name for relief teaching~ and then go home and reg online.. but sadly to say.. THEY ACTUALLY REJECTED ME!!! aHHHH... most probably cos the online form i cannot feel in probably cos there isn't a place for me to write down that i actualli hav not graduated frm uni, but juz finish yr 1 and probably lack of commitment lah.. oh well.. sad case eh..
next.. next.. got our NA outing!! hahah... i gav up on sqd outing, cos pple juz dun turn up.. lose interest... hahah.. not bad lah. juz like gathering and tok crap loh.. it's amazin to see how some hav changed and some things juz NEVER change.. haha... i shld b frank here~ hahaha hope u dudes dun mind k.. egg.. stil late and VERY much devoted to church activity, mitch, as uM.. open as eva.. , xinyu ah.. is the old xinyu lah.. no need describe.. sc.. the most changed of all.. getting so much more gentle hahah.. and girly =P haha unfortunately it was a short outing since mitch had ta leave earli.. and sc need to go jie sj pple frm perth... and egg was like 1-2 hrs late.. oh well..
i went with sc to go airport lah.. since i nothing to do anyway.. there was a gd thing and bad thing to it lah... gd thing i actualli manage to catch laura who is going to fly off to US to study.... was her mentor for intra comp i think.. not a gd one lah but at least her talents were recognised~ bad thing is.. the STUpid sTupid chee wee... it mite hav been juz a line, a joke.. a line that he didn't gav much thot to b4 he spoke.. "then u b my valentine this yr lah" (agar agar lah) we were tokin abt valentines day this yr.. and he damn sad he no gf to pei him... and this line juz came out... i wld hav jumped all over the place if this line came out like... 4-5 yrs ago.. when i was having this dumb crush on him.. a crush that crushed me. firstly i was thinking abt this the whole day... how i felt so dumb when it was supposingly one-sided.secondly, not until a few days ago while chattin with william pei(my senior in sj last time) that he reminded me wad happened to me during sec 2, that bloody incident.. was all because of this crush i had. i feel DUMb. vERY dUmb. how come my life gets so screwed. or how i let myself get screwed. dUmb. and this again brings up the thot of how terrible a person i muz b to get pple reprimanding u in that form of a manner, not once, but twice (though 2 different grp of pple and 2 different reasons) but stil.. i hate myself.. i dunno is it realli myself or wad. positively i think if i'm realli so terrible, all my frends wun hav shunned me, on the other hand, if negative, i juz think they are all too nice to shun me away... see that's why i set the resolution to solve this conflicting prob i hav with myself. i hate scoldings. i hate it when i dun do things rite.. ARgH.. and that were thots of several days ago. i'm kinda ok now.. but stil i wanna get it gone and over with. Start Afresh! (i even thought of actualli paying someone to get me hypnotized to forget all that have happened during that period of time.. am i crazy or wad? =P but i guess that's realli the last resort and if i hav to go that far to get a life back, i would actualli do it)
and we're reaching the last part~~ i've gotta announce i got my attachment in the hospital with the hospital pharmacist.. been 2 days already...hahah and my legs are totalli GONE. hahah standing for long hrs.. packing western med like a chinese doctor will do.. hopefully someday along this attachment i do get to go ard with the hospital pharmacist to see wad they actualli do. been tiring.. alot of concentration needed.. to prevent frm packing anymore wrong med.. feel so sorry that i seem to b increasin the pple's workload.. but it's a gd chance to see more and experience more~ =) that's all for now... need ta go slp soon.. i've been feeling damn slpy frm 9...OMG.. is this realli me?? =P
i shall try and blog in much of wad i remember frm yr start...
it wasn't a gd start lah..my gd tempered dad threw a tantrum on 1st jan...shall not further write why.. cos it's realli bad when my dad loses his temper.. so me and my mom juz went outta the place.. and went ard shopping for abit.. ate then went back home.. where the mood kinda died down.. and it's ok again.. but i realli hate to see him lose temper.. sO sCary.
next thing i remember is.. hahah. .go my cousin house play game and read comics~ routine lah...
then later in the wk when to celebrate my grandpa's bdae in the HK jockey club(a place where onli rich pple get to eat there!!) obviousli is not me family that's so rich lah.. my aunt's husband is totalli rich loh.. heard my mommy say.. her whole yr salary probably only equal to wad he get for one month.. like OMG.
before i left HK went out quite a bit with Winnie (my very first rmmate in aus, and proudly to say, my future rmmate!!), went shopping lah crap ard lah.. hahah one thing i find she damn cute is that when we go shoppin hor.. she is looking for things for me to buy.. hahaha.. go into clothes shop hor.. me still lookin then she will come to me with this stack of clothes and excitedly say to me "esther esther.. try this and this and this.. i think shld look quite nice on you~~ go go..."hahah...
aniwae.. yea.. came back and rot for a wk... n at the same time looking for something to do~
firstly i went back to dhs, to visit teachers~ mostly tan jan fee lah.. cos without her.. i couldn't hav made it to aus (results-wise...) cos my prelims result sucked.. big time... and after that went to ka chow sc's comp train~ hahah i stil cannot forget my love for home nursing (i seeing disgusted faces of sc and others who share hatred for home nursing hahaha)...
me also wrote down my name for relief teaching~ and then go home and reg online.. but sadly to say.. THEY ACTUALLY REJECTED ME!!! aHHHH... most probably cos the online form i cannot feel in probably cos there isn't a place for me to write down that i actualli hav not graduated frm uni, but juz finish yr 1 and probably lack of commitment lah.. oh well.. sad case eh..
next.. next.. got our NA outing!! hahah... i gav up on sqd outing, cos pple juz dun turn up.. lose interest... hahah.. not bad lah. juz like gathering and tok crap loh.. it's amazin to see how some hav changed and some things juz NEVER change.. haha... i shld b frank here~ hahaha hope u dudes dun mind k.. egg.. stil late and VERY much devoted to church activity, mitch, as uM.. open as eva.. , xinyu ah.. is the old xinyu lah.. no need describe.. sc.. the most changed of all.. getting so much more gentle hahah.. and girly =P haha unfortunately it was a short outing since mitch had ta leave earli.. and sc need to go jie sj pple frm perth... and egg was like 1-2 hrs late.. oh well..
i went with sc to go airport lah.. since i nothing to do anyway.. there was a gd thing and bad thing to it lah... gd thing i actualli manage to catch laura who is going to fly off to US to study.... was her mentor for intra comp i think.. not a gd one lah but at least her talents were recognised~ bad thing is.. the STUpid sTupid chee wee... it mite hav been juz a line, a joke.. a line that he didn't gav much thot to b4 he spoke.. "then u b my valentine this yr lah" (agar agar lah) we were tokin abt valentines day this yr.. and he damn sad he no gf to pei him... and this line juz came out... i wld hav jumped all over the place if this line came out like... 4-5 yrs ago.. when i was having this dumb crush on him.. a crush that crushed me. firstly i was thinking abt this the whole day... how i felt so dumb when it was supposingly one-sided.secondly, not until a few days ago while chattin with william pei(my senior in sj last time) that he reminded me wad happened to me during sec 2, that bloody incident.. was all because of this crush i had. i feel DUMb. vERY dUmb. how come my life gets so screwed. or how i let myself get screwed. dUmb. and this again brings up the thot of how terrible a person i muz b to get pple reprimanding u in that form of a manner, not once, but twice (though 2 different grp of pple and 2 different reasons) but stil.. i hate myself.. i dunno is it realli myself or wad. positively i think if i'm realli so terrible, all my frends wun hav shunned me, on the other hand, if negative, i juz think they are all too nice to shun me away... see that's why i set the resolution to solve this conflicting prob i hav with myself. i hate scoldings. i hate it when i dun do things rite.. ARgH.. and that were thots of several days ago. i'm kinda ok now.. but stil i wanna get it gone and over with. Start Afresh! (i even thought of actualli paying someone to get me hypnotized to forget all that have happened during that period of time.. am i crazy or wad? =P but i guess that's realli the last resort and if i hav to go that far to get a life back, i would actualli do it)
and we're reaching the last part~~ i've gotta announce i got my attachment in the hospital with the hospital pharmacist.. been 2 days already...hahah and my legs are totalli GONE. hahah standing for long hrs.. packing western med like a chinese doctor will do.. hopefully someday along this attachment i do get to go ard with the hospital pharmacist to see wad they actualli do. been tiring.. alot of concentration needed.. to prevent frm packing anymore wrong med.. feel so sorry that i seem to b increasin the pple's workload.. but it's a gd chance to see more and experience more~ =) that's all for now... need ta go slp soon.. i've been feeling damn slpy frm 9...OMG.. is this realli me?? =P
Sunday, January 23, 2005
2005!!
been a long time since i last blogged... mainly due to laziness... have tons of things to blog.. hopefully i not too lazy to finish them off.. hahah..
firstly i muz remind myself to write down wad i feel i wanna write down, regardless the pple that actually reads this~ mayb u pple think otherwise since it seems rather..too blunt.. but somehow i feel somethings need to be expressed, but mayb i can't say it rite out in ya face, or i juz wanna express(or mayb u guys wld say i juz complaining) myself....
let's start!
since it's a new year, i shall attempt to write the first ever set of resolution~ i never had this kinda habit in doin a resolution, i never bother to write it down but i think i do think abt it.. so this yr, i shall make it special and actualli list it out!
1) Try my best to be less late or not late at all! (Till now not quite successful... =( , but shall jia you!)
2)Be more thrifty in Aust, putting in consideration of how family financial condition is.
3) Change certain bad habits
4) Be more hardworking, to stay on in the course and graduate!!
5) Be nicer (generally, e.g. stop stabbing my ex-rmmate.. I shall TRY VERY VERY HARd.. )
6) Solve my past problems and start afresh~ (seek counselling when i reach aust, and stop hating myself. which again is not going quite well now.. u will noe why when i reach later part of blog)
7) Try to read/watch news everyday
8) Learn new skills (e.g. knitting (YEAH Successful alreadi haha.. juz beginning stage of it), Yoga, and Wing-Chun)
9) Try to slp at a more normal pattern =P
hRm.. oh no.. in order to satisfied my last resolution, i juz realise that it's alreadi 1.30am.. so i shld go off now and continue off tml. yea.. rest assure.. i shall continue.. hahah i promise.. gd nite pple!
firstly i muz remind myself to write down wad i feel i wanna write down, regardless the pple that actually reads this~ mayb u pple think otherwise since it seems rather..too blunt.. but somehow i feel somethings need to be expressed, but mayb i can't say it rite out in ya face, or i juz wanna express(or mayb u guys wld say i juz complaining) myself....
let's start!
since it's a new year, i shall attempt to write the first ever set of resolution~ i never had this kinda habit in doin a resolution, i never bother to write it down but i think i do think abt it.. so this yr, i shall make it special and actualli list it out!
1) Try my best to be less late or not late at all! (Till now not quite successful... =( , but shall jia you!)
2)Be more thrifty in Aust, putting in consideration of how family financial condition is.
3) Change certain bad habits
4) Be more hardworking, to stay on in the course and graduate!!
5) Be nicer (generally, e.g. stop stabbing my ex-rmmate.. I shall TRY VERY VERY HARd.. )
6) Solve my past problems and start afresh~ (seek counselling when i reach aust, and stop hating myself. which again is not going quite well now.. u will noe why when i reach later part of blog)
7) Try to read/watch news everyday
8) Learn new skills (e.g. knitting (YEAH Successful alreadi haha.. juz beginning stage of it), Yoga, and Wing-Chun)
9) Try to slp at a more normal pattern =P
hRm.. oh no.. in order to satisfied my last resolution, i juz realise that it's alreadi 1.30am.. so i shld go off now and continue off tml. yea.. rest assure.. i shall continue.. hahah i promise.. gd nite pple!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
The Incredibles are realli incredible~
hRmm. where shld i start frm.. ok went ta watch movie on sunday noon.. The Incredibles.. damn funnY~ realli a gd one... love Pixar movies.. realli creative... then tok crap with sc all the way.. cooL~
then went dinner with yun kuan and yanfang yesterday nite.. at kenny rogers.. and miraculously(is this how u spell it?) yun kuan was the earliest to arrive...(she's like forever the latest one.. =P ) aniwaez.. another crapping session.. this time got no ulcer so i can tok for all i like.. feel damn gd also~
oH~.. and i actuali told my mom abt derek.. cos she was damn hyper on that particular nite.. so i decided if not now.. it's never.. so i told her lo.. instead of feeling relieved.. i kinda still feel scared cos her reaction that nite.. is too abnormal.. in the end tonite totalli understand why i feel like that.. cos she starting to nag abt having this relationship...when she mood not hyper i die liaO lo~... oh no.. but better than hiding frm her i guess.. aiyah dunno laH~..
my internet is seriousli pissing me off.. i playing the online game 'World of Warcraft' maH~ then alwaes dc.. cannot even play a continous game properly.. sIghz.. mayb it's my laptop problem? but i never encounter this kinda prob back in aust... making frenz in the game too~ though the better ones are in US, just 2 of them currently... it juz strikes me how easily you can make frenz online when u got topics in common.. and how easily u can mislead pple into thinking that u're this fantastic person...think there's pros and cons to this.. like pple won't judge you by your looks.. and juz by how you tok and if you actualli mean wad you say.. it's gd.. cos it's ya personality that they're accepting.. but on the other hand.. u juz fake ya way thru... then basically it's all a fantasy world and pple juz get cheated..
haha.. sorry all my paragraphs are quite random.. not realli related.. aniwaez.. gtg slp.. hav a long day ahead of me =D gd nite pple!
then went dinner with yun kuan and yanfang yesterday nite.. at kenny rogers.. and miraculously(is this how u spell it?) yun kuan was the earliest to arrive...(she's like forever the latest one.. =P ) aniwaez.. another crapping session.. this time got no ulcer so i can tok for all i like.. feel damn gd also~
oH~.. and i actuali told my mom abt derek.. cos she was damn hyper on that particular nite.. so i decided if not now.. it's never.. so i told her lo.. instead of feeling relieved.. i kinda still feel scared cos her reaction that nite.. is too abnormal.. in the end tonite totalli understand why i feel like that.. cos she starting to nag abt having this relationship...when she mood not hyper i die liaO lo~... oh no.. but better than hiding frm her i guess.. aiyah dunno laH~..
my internet is seriousli pissing me off.. i playing the online game 'World of Warcraft' maH~ then alwaes dc.. cannot even play a continous game properly.. sIghz.. mayb it's my laptop problem? but i never encounter this kinda prob back in aust... making frenz in the game too~ though the better ones are in US, just 2 of them currently... it juz strikes me how easily you can make frenz online when u got topics in common.. and how easily u can mislead pple into thinking that u're this fantastic person...think there's pros and cons to this.. like pple won't judge you by your looks.. and juz by how you tok and if you actualli mean wad you say.. it's gd.. cos it's ya personality that they're accepting.. but on the other hand.. u juz fake ya way thru... then basically it's all a fantasy world and pple juz get cheated..
haha.. sorry all my paragraphs are quite random.. not realli related.. aniwaez.. gtg slp.. hav a long day ahead of me =D gd nite pple!
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Constant & Accelerated(due to heat) Rotting...
after much rotting at home and trying to get the freaking internet to give me a stable enough connection to World of Warcraft(a new online game.. =D ) i was out tonight.. went back to social nite in sec sch sj unit... exciting to meet all my seniors and juniors again.. though didn't tok much... see quite a few changes in some pple.. and some are juz.. the same.. and even felt something that mayb i shldn't feel(WAHHH I'M GOING CRAZI.. if onli i can tok to winnie now.. hahah.. cannot write here wad i felt.. not for all eyes.. =P sorri!)
aniwaez... yes.. back to the nite.. reached when they at the end of the supper and followed serene, aiping, sc back to their bunk and juz crap as they took turns to bathe.. sch is.. the same.. cept they added new fans to klassrm and changed the sec 4 klass tables.. makes me feel that the klassrm abit more gloomy.. dark blue is darker than grey mayb.. that's why i felt that way..
aniwae.. they were trying to decide on some impt allocation thingy.. and apparentli this is the 4th day so all very tired alreadi.. then most are slping after the dinner while sc worked on.. after she finish then went to see social nite.. performance-wise.. ummmm.. quite the sad case laH~.. esp when see one grp onli got 4 pple go and perform.. brings back bad memories frm my camp times...
after all the performance.. it's mass dance.. wanted to join actualli but abit the out of place laH~.. and most cannot remember liaO~ so decided to back out.. but see them hav so much fun.. oh well.. somehow i miss going to camps.. no such thing animore after we grow up... I HATE GROWING UP.. immature thots.. my brain have rotted so much that.. my thinkings are all disorganised and random.. forgive me..
wanted to hang ard more.. and it was gettin late.. so serene shooed me home.. haha.. managed to catch a bus juz in time (YEAH save $$).. call my mom on the way.. and she's not back yet too stil ard the area so we met up at the train station and went home together..
tml.. tml.. going out at nite again.. ahha. hope the stupid renovation can stop.. alwaes wake me up frm my slp.. and the irritatin singer that cannot sing well stop singin at the park opp my place at 3am.. lolz.. i'm going crazi ;)
aniwaez... yes.. back to the nite.. reached when they at the end of the supper and followed serene, aiping, sc back to their bunk and juz crap as they took turns to bathe.. sch is.. the same.. cept they added new fans to klassrm and changed the sec 4 klass tables.. makes me feel that the klassrm abit more gloomy.. dark blue is darker than grey mayb.. that's why i felt that way..
aniwae.. they were trying to decide on some impt allocation thingy.. and apparentli this is the 4th day so all very tired alreadi.. then most are slping after the dinner while sc worked on.. after she finish then went to see social nite.. performance-wise.. ummmm.. quite the sad case laH~.. esp when see one grp onli got 4 pple go and perform.. brings back bad memories frm my camp times...
after all the performance.. it's mass dance.. wanted to join actualli but abit the out of place laH~.. and most cannot remember liaO~ so decided to back out.. but see them hav so much fun.. oh well.. somehow i miss going to camps.. no such thing animore after we grow up... I HATE GROWING UP.. immature thots.. my brain have rotted so much that.. my thinkings are all disorganised and random.. forgive me..
wanted to hang ard more.. and it was gettin late.. so serene shooed me home.. haha.. managed to catch a bus juz in time (YEAH save $$).. call my mom on the way.. and she's not back yet too stil ard the area so we met up at the train station and went home together..
tml.. tml.. going out at nite again.. ahha. hope the stupid renovation can stop.. alwaes wake me up frm my slp.. and the irritatin singer that cannot sing well stop singin at the park opp my place at 3am.. lolz.. i'm going crazi ;)
Thursday, December 16, 2004
2nd Use of Handphones: Portable Torchlight...
juz went ta watch blade trinity today with clement (some dude i knew frm aust, who flunked his studies since he was too lazy, and is back here doin NS...P.S. not to forget to mention one of his hobbies seems to b insulting me... but aniwae stil fren mah.. his insults i use to it alreadi lah~)...aniwae.. the movie was.. um.. ok laH~.. seems to lack the something that wld make me say that it's a GOOD/GREAT movie.. =P
aniwae.. wad'z that abt my title? juz wad i observe lo~ and since i got no special title for this entry.. hahah.. today i was in the theatre.. then pple come in late no more light for them find seat mah.. then a few of them use their handphone light lo~ which seems to be quite commonli seen by me laH~.. haha(actualli derek is the onli other person i see doing that.. oh well *roll eyes*)ha.. handphones.. realli 'multipurpose' ain't they??
aniwae.. wad'z that abt my title? juz wad i observe lo~ and since i got no special title for this entry.. hahah.. today i was in the theatre.. then pple come in late no more light for them find seat mah.. then a few of them use their handphone light lo~ which seems to be quite commonli seen by me laH~.. haha(actualli derek is the onli other person i see doing that.. oh well *roll eyes*)ha.. handphones.. realli 'multipurpose' ain't they??
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
1.5 Yr aNniversaRy
hRm.. well i'm back in sg... nothing much but mostli rotting at home... and i had this stupid ulcer on my tongue that bothered me for a few days... cannot eat properli.. cannot tok properli.. so crap... also went out for outing with sqd... which was not bad a turnout for gals.. but the guys.. um.. quite the sad case.. esp. with pple like wenyuan and guanfoo ard.. i'm not scared abt offending this 2 person.. cos i seriousli have something against them and i'm gonna b quite open abt it =P aniwae.. it's gd to meet frenz again...
then on last sunday.. went BBQ with yanfang and yunkuan... on a rainy day in east coast.. fang was the chef.. me the person in charge of making the fire to come back to life when it dies.. and kuan incharge of eating.. hahah.. was quite against the idea actualli cos i thot none of us can build fire... confirm die of hunger there one.. somemore (abit the selfish lah this part) later plus my ulcer and sore throat.. realli dun feel like going lo.. but i told myself cannot like that one lah.. come back once in a while... so went... and actualli we manage to get some fire.. hahah.. and even cook something... hhaha not bad not bad.. then we juz sit there and crap lo... as usual... once in a while quite nice laH~.. but when they suggested we shld do it on a yrly basis.. i wanna die liaO~ sorry aH~ quite the mean.. but.. erh.. realli BBQ quite the ex and too much effort.. =P (basically i'm juz plain lazi..)
then~ reach the main pt.. haha the subject of my post.. yesterday was the 1.5 yr anniversary for me and derek.. nothing much special obviousli.. cos we're not in the same place.. i juz called him lo.. and he totalli forgot abt that.. as expected.. seems like guys juz are not that.. um.. wad do you call that.. mindful abt this kinda things.. but i'm quite glad that we actualli lasted to this stage.. the beginning was just horrible.. i practically wanted to dump him.. he and his temper and moodiness i really cannot tahan maN~.. aniwaez~ we endured that thru and we're stil together~ not bad not bad =)
OH OH.. and muz mention here.. mayb i mention his cousins b4 but i'm too lazi to explain even if i never mention them b4.. but well i juz got the info.. his cousin, pascal juz proposed to his gf(2gether for like 4yrs alreadi!!).. so coOl eh.. they both like 23 or 22 liao i think.. but i think it's realli cool cos this is like the first time my frens is actualli gettin married.. WOW... just plain amazing...
hrm gotta go slp now.. or my mom gotta pop up and scold pple liaO~ gd nite!
then on last sunday.. went BBQ with yanfang and yunkuan... on a rainy day in east coast.. fang was the chef.. me the person in charge of making the fire to come back to life when it dies.. and kuan incharge of eating.. hahah.. was quite against the idea actualli cos i thot none of us can build fire... confirm die of hunger there one.. somemore (abit the selfish lah this part) later plus my ulcer and sore throat.. realli dun feel like going lo.. but i told myself cannot like that one lah.. come back once in a while... so went... and actualli we manage to get some fire.. hahah.. and even cook something... hhaha not bad not bad.. then we juz sit there and crap lo... as usual... once in a while quite nice laH~.. but when they suggested we shld do it on a yrly basis.. i wanna die liaO~ sorry aH~ quite the mean.. but.. erh.. realli BBQ quite the ex and too much effort.. =P (basically i'm juz plain lazi..)
then~ reach the main pt.. haha the subject of my post.. yesterday was the 1.5 yr anniversary for me and derek.. nothing much special obviousli.. cos we're not in the same place.. i juz called him lo.. and he totalli forgot abt that.. as expected.. seems like guys juz are not that.. um.. wad do you call that.. mindful abt this kinda things.. but i'm quite glad that we actualli lasted to this stage.. the beginning was just horrible.. i practically wanted to dump him.. he and his temper and moodiness i really cannot tahan maN~.. aniwaez~ we endured that thru and we're stil together~ not bad not bad =)
OH OH.. and muz mention here.. mayb i mention his cousins b4 but i'm too lazi to explain even if i never mention them b4.. but well i juz got the info.. his cousin, pascal juz proposed to his gf(2gether for like 4yrs alreadi!!).. so coOl eh.. they both like 23 or 22 liao i think.. but i think it's realli cool cos this is like the first time my frens is actualli gettin married.. WOW... just plain amazing...
hrm gotta go slp now.. or my mom gotta pop up and scold pple liaO~ gd nite!
Monday, November 22, 2004
I don't know... I think I hate myself...
WeLL... after the depressing blog last time.. i just have more bad news for myself that i've been so... inefficient in lookin for the counsellor.. till now i haven seen anione yet.. though i know i seriousli need help...
dunno why.. i have a feeling that some person(i dunno who...just a feeling k.) reading this wld feel that i trying to draw attention... gain pity... and seriousli i just wanna clarify that i'm not. think my blog is a place where i vent my frustration... whines... and blah blah.. and if this hRm.. weighs you down and makes you feel more depress, stop reading ok.
my psychological health is deteriorating... and i realise with the stress of the uni life.. i can no longer cope with my past, and even myself.. i dunno where am i heading to, wad am i becoming.. i seem to hav lost my identity. but i will sort it out soon, i hope...
in addition, i'm currentli looking ard for a new place for next yr, just gettin an idea and not realli moving to aniwhere with my very very first rmmate in australia, winnie... she's someone who i confides to here, even more then i tok to derek... my current best fren i can say... i hope that next yr, living with her... i would.. feel more at home, when i'm at home.. if u get wad i trying to say.. hahaha.. kinda confusing eh? it's just that this yr, i realli hav trouble living in the current apartment with my rmmate.. juz keeps on generating negative feelings... but with winnie.. it's different, i dunno... now we're like.. discussing how we wanna keep the place clean and blah blah next time.. looking forward to it.. new life next yr.. hopefully.. and wan to sort out my irritating problems by next yr too.. hahaha
blog next time.. tired.. gotta slp.. gd nite dudes... thankz for being there for me when i need you dudes ;)
dunno why.. i have a feeling that some person(i dunno who...just a feeling k.) reading this wld feel that i trying to draw attention... gain pity... and seriousli i just wanna clarify that i'm not. think my blog is a place where i vent my frustration... whines... and blah blah.. and if this hRm.. weighs you down and makes you feel more depress, stop reading ok.
my psychological health is deteriorating... and i realise with the stress of the uni life.. i can no longer cope with my past, and even myself.. i dunno where am i heading to, wad am i becoming.. i seem to hav lost my identity. but i will sort it out soon, i hope...
in addition, i'm currentli looking ard for a new place for next yr, just gettin an idea and not realli moving to aniwhere with my very very first rmmate in australia, winnie... she's someone who i confides to here, even more then i tok to derek... my current best fren i can say... i hope that next yr, living with her... i would.. feel more at home, when i'm at home.. if u get wad i trying to say.. hahaha.. kinda confusing eh? it's just that this yr, i realli hav trouble living in the current apartment with my rmmate.. juz keeps on generating negative feelings... but with winnie.. it's different, i dunno... now we're like.. discussing how we wanna keep the place clean and blah blah next time.. looking forward to it.. new life next yr.. hopefully.. and wan to sort out my irritating problems by next yr too.. hahaha
blog next time.. tired.. gotta slp.. gd nite dudes... thankz for being there for me when i need you dudes ;)
Monday, November 15, 2004
Er.
ok... to pple who keep on checking back for updates... this is a BIG SORRY FROM ME... SORRY SORRY!!...
guess u've been waiting.. but i must say... i have so much to say but i'm too tired... i have... finalli collapsed... metally,emotionally collapsed...after a 3 yrs since 'that' incident(to those who are not involved. forget it. dun ask me abt it. it SUCKED. to those who are involved,that's the thing that's affecting me)
this is affecting me so much, today i realli had the thot of jumping down the train rails, walking out onto the road and stand there. serious. not scaring u all.. i'm seeking help soon, from the sch counsellor. i wanna go psychologist.. do those.. hypnosis that make u forget stuff.. i dun wanna remember that incident animore... sorry dudes, i can't say animore.. i juz feel the tears coming back.. though my eyes are all dry now.. cried for 30mins today..URGHZ...
one last thing..: TO LAU YEE CHENG, i dun think u wld eva read these, but if someone decides to pass this to u.. U FREAKIN COWARD. U RUIN MY LIFE I WANNA STRANGLE U, KILL U. U DUN EVEN DARE SAY SORRY TO ME DIRECTLI.. U BLOODY IDIOT, DUN THINK RUNNIN BACK TO MSIA WILL SAVE U, SOMEDAY U WILL PAY, till mayb if i actualli attain the level of forgivesness(which the church gav an interesting definition: forgiveness means i will not hurt u for hurting me. sorry i have not reach that level yet.. till then, if u see me, RUN FOR YOU LIFE.)
i'm tired. i'm in a mess...
guess u've been waiting.. but i must say... i have so much to say but i'm too tired... i have... finalli collapsed... metally,emotionally collapsed...after a 3 yrs since 'that' incident(to those who are not involved. forget it. dun ask me abt it. it SUCKED. to those who are involved,that's the thing that's affecting me)
this is affecting me so much, today i realli had the thot of jumping down the train rails, walking out onto the road and stand there. serious. not scaring u all.. i'm seeking help soon, from the sch counsellor. i wanna go psychologist.. do those.. hypnosis that make u forget stuff.. i dun wanna remember that incident animore... sorry dudes, i can't say animore.. i juz feel the tears coming back.. though my eyes are all dry now.. cried for 30mins today..URGHZ...
one last thing..: TO LAU YEE CHENG, i dun think u wld eva read these, but if someone decides to pass this to u.. U FREAKIN COWARD. U RUIN MY LIFE I WANNA STRANGLE U, KILL U. U DUN EVEN DARE SAY SORRY TO ME DIRECTLI.. U BLOODY IDIOT, DUN THINK RUNNIN BACK TO MSIA WILL SAVE U, SOMEDAY U WILL PAY, till mayb if i actualli attain the level of forgivesness(which the church gav an interesting definition: forgiveness means i will not hurt u for hurting me. sorry i have not reach that level yet.. till then, if u see me, RUN FOR YOU LIFE.)
i'm tired. i'm in a mess...
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Monthly Review
wahahaha.. the lazi bum is here to update again.. cos it's 3.30am at night and i don't feel like sleeping...at all.. maybe i should stay up till tml so i can fix back my body clock... i'm so screwed up now...
i'm having holz.. but i feel that it's passing too quickly.. mayb cos the fact that i've been sleeping 36 hours for the past 3 days.. recuperating i call it.. haha imagine the wk b4 this holz i was realli going crazi with work and had been fallin aslp on my study table for like 4 out of the 5 days of school, the only one day i didn't was that i didn't sleep.. i can't help but scold..."BLOODY HELL.. WHAT KINDA FREAKING UNI IS THIS??" they juz simply LOVEEE to squeeze everything on the wk b4 holz.. terrible terrible.. aust uni is juz terrible
though the title of this update is call.. monthly review.. i don't tok abt what happened this month.. cos.. i dun realli remember wad happened.. life is just passing me by without me remembering much
well... i remember that this semester, had 2 closer friends in uni, one called jun(which previously i thot was called june till i can't help but ask her one day why your nick in msn is jun then i realise.. so dumb rite) the other one called poh lin (which me and my friends frequently refer to wedges (as in those potato wedges leh.. fried ones... hahaha.. why? cos my dear rmmate shindi was tokin to her during lunchtime on one fine day...
*shindi and poh lin were plannin to go get something to eat for lunch, and kinda think it's potato wedges*
shindi: (lookin at poh lin) "lets go... wedges"
*poh lin got up*
me: (wanting to be lame and tryin to bully shindi wahahah.. though this intentions are not realli clear durin that time) "aiyoh... shindi why you so bad one.. call people wedges... and why poh lin also got response one.."
wahahha that's how she got the nick.. poh lin is older then both me and shindi, turnin 2o this yr.. but have not a single sign of 20.. she seems like the same age as me.. and at sometimes i actualli thing she is very similar to siew chin.. wahahha...
well.. the past wk was hectic also cos... i thought that i'm goin to get fired from work, the scooping ice cream one... cos i missed work the 2nd time.. 1st time i bravely admit that it's my fault that i conveniently assumed i was workin the same time and didn't check the roster, but i've learnt my lesson and that i checked everytime.. but sadly, this time it's either someone decide to be so very nice to me to add in the time on my slot or i misread(which seems like an excuse, but frankly speaking.. i really have no idea i was working...i checked the roster definitely since i notice i change in my ususl scheduled time) for the whole wk, i happily thought that i was to work on saturday only and when my de other work for notetaking called to say i have work on thurs i gladly accepted... then on that day i had a super early day off (just 2 hours of school starting from 9) and then i went off to hazalea's place to check out how's my outfit for the annual dance and dinner for the malaysian's society(i'm attending since derek is and have to as he ran for a position in the committee in the society and needs to attend the dinner to know the results, in the end of cos he got the position since it was a walkover but still, appearing is very important for PR...he is the internal secretary now...), melinda came along too.. i was suppose to go home when haz felt like skipping her tute and lecture and we decided to catch a movie b4 i head off to work..we watched princess diaries 2.. which was sweet and funny~ but just at the best part, scoop ice cream work there decides to call...(after 3 miss calls i decided to pick up the phone)
work: hello, are you coming for work?
me: um.. nope, i wasn't scheduled for today, and if this is about me taking over andrea(my colleage at work who ask me to take over her shift for the evenin as she have a report due the next day and haven started it yet) i already told her i couldn't make it as i have another job today...
work: andrea already called in sick but she didn't mention anithing about you.. are you coming or not?
me: i told you i've got another job today and i cannot come...(i'm gettin messed up and pissed...)
work: so you're not coming?
me: no.. i'm not, i cannot make it... and i wasn't scheduled for today, i checked...
work: no... there it says on your timeslot...
me:what? i don't know anything.. i cannot come today...
work: so you not coming.. fine.. *puts down*
i was left at the cinema, feeling lost, missin the best part of the movie and frantic
this manager would fire me cos i alwaes felt that she have something against me.. cutting down my hours.. hinting that i don't work well.. picking on me(kinda)... well i was prepared.. the next day she called again to ask what happened and i explained to her, honestly, i see no point in lying or wadsoeva.. i had another application form to a nearby bubble tea shop ready and actually noticed that the warner bros studio shop is recruiting and was already planning to print out the resume for them.. when on the day of meeting the manager, she cancelled the meeting...and after checking.. i'm stil rostered for comin wks ... now i'm really confused.. but i won't be seeing her.. till i don't know when.. so i will be in this state till i meet her again.. i'm absolutely excited about the idea of workin in warner bros.. you know me.. with all those tazs lying everywhere.. staff discount(i hope~ so i can get all those taz products.. and mayb even staff trips to gold coast where the headquarters, warner bros studio is~w wahahahhahah) i don't know.. till things settle down
now back to the holz, so free.. yet so busy.. don't feel like doin the pile of work waitin for me at home, i don't like my place at all, alwaes like to hide out in other pple places, out and not facing my place, since it is where all my work, my study table resides, but i feel so guilty too, not doin anithing.. i hate myself.. idiotic lazi bum.. urGhz.. i hate studies.. i needta work.. i feel that i'm burdening my family so much by studyin here.. and my course is so time consuming.. lookin at those commerce pple who alwaes have at least one day off the 5 days of sch.. i feel so envious...oh well.. different requirements i guess..
and this 2 days, i saw derek's cousin and his gf, frantically writin their thesis, since one of them is doing honours and one is in his final term.. oh my gosh.. i can't do a thing about this wadeva thesis.. the sound of it suck.. don't even ask me to write it.. think i mite juz faint and die.. over the passing year, i realise i don't like wad i'm doing at all.. all the time, i feel like quitting school.. i don't know.. even though i knew from the start that i needed to chose some course that i like, and i thought that i like this subject about pharmacy.. i realise i've chosen the wrong course, this was not wad i was thinking off.. the people are just so good and clever, i'm back to where i was.. near the last few amount the pool of people, back to where i was in dhs.. where i was struggling to keep up even when i was among the not-so-good klass... sighz furthermore i cannot fail, i cannot fail at anithing.. i have to complete this course in 4 years or else, i will end up in no where since i really doubt whether my mom can support me if i take more then 4 years to complete the course, every year, this freakin aus uni is goin to increase their price by like 10-20%... they think what, i have a gold mine beneath my house or something...
to the someone that actulli bothered to read till this part.. i congratulate u since i'm sick and tired of reading wad i'm typing.. i'm doing random whining...
yes, i whine.. so wad.. everybody says i whine.. and that's wad i am, it's natural.. u not happy u go.. everybody does it some time or another.. just that i do it more often...i use to have things the good way, where i need not whine.. at all.. my family was financially above average, happily together(not that it's not happy now.. but just not together), i score well academically and in sports, and music, i have my parents to rely on... but now wad? i struggle to keep up, i have to worry about money i see pple who are rich and just spend their money or rich and keep on saying they're poor(which pisses me off cos it seems fake...) n i have to take care of other pple.. who are older then me.. one gd eg. is the pple in my house now.. they're older then me.. but wad kinda rubbish they present me... super dirty kitchen that if i clean it today(which i realli just did) and mess it up again tml with matchsticks on the counter EVERYWHERE(as if a rubbish bin didn't exist within 30cm(which actualli does)) a ricecooker that belonged to me and anyone with common sense shld noe that rice that is cooked should be scoop out to a container and put into the fridge and wash that freaking ricecooker that doesn't belong to you and is a communal object to be used by everyone and shld not be filled with the same old cooked rice that's cooked 3days ago.. D*** it.. i miss the empty rice cooker..
there i go again.. i gotta stop.. this is pissing myself off... wad the heck..uRGhz
i'm having holz.. but i feel that it's passing too quickly.. mayb cos the fact that i've been sleeping 36 hours for the past 3 days.. recuperating i call it.. haha imagine the wk b4 this holz i was realli going crazi with work and had been fallin aslp on my study table for like 4 out of the 5 days of school, the only one day i didn't was that i didn't sleep.. i can't help but scold..."BLOODY HELL.. WHAT KINDA FREAKING UNI IS THIS??" they juz simply LOVEEE to squeeze everything on the wk b4 holz.. terrible terrible.. aust uni is juz terrible
though the title of this update is call.. monthly review.. i don't tok abt what happened this month.. cos.. i dun realli remember wad happened.. life is just passing me by without me remembering much
well... i remember that this semester, had 2 closer friends in uni, one called jun(which previously i thot was called june till i can't help but ask her one day why your nick in msn is jun then i realise.. so dumb rite) the other one called poh lin (which me and my friends frequently refer to wedges (as in those potato wedges leh.. fried ones... hahaha.. why? cos my dear rmmate shindi was tokin to her during lunchtime on one fine day...
*shindi and poh lin were plannin to go get something to eat for lunch, and kinda think it's potato wedges*
shindi: (lookin at poh lin) "lets go... wedges"
*poh lin got up*
me: (wanting to be lame and tryin to bully shindi wahahah.. though this intentions are not realli clear durin that time) "aiyoh... shindi why you so bad one.. call people wedges... and why poh lin also got response one.."
wahahha that's how she got the nick.. poh lin is older then both me and shindi, turnin 2o this yr.. but have not a single sign of 20.. she seems like the same age as me.. and at sometimes i actualli thing she is very similar to siew chin.. wahahha...
well.. the past wk was hectic also cos... i thought that i'm goin to get fired from work, the scooping ice cream one... cos i missed work the 2nd time.. 1st time i bravely admit that it's my fault that i conveniently assumed i was workin the same time and didn't check the roster, but i've learnt my lesson and that i checked everytime.. but sadly, this time it's either someone decide to be so very nice to me to add in the time on my slot or i misread(which seems like an excuse, but frankly speaking.. i really have no idea i was working...i checked the roster definitely since i notice i change in my ususl scheduled time) for the whole wk, i happily thought that i was to work on saturday only and when my de other work for notetaking called to say i have work on thurs i gladly accepted... then on that day i had a super early day off (just 2 hours of school starting from 9) and then i went off to hazalea's place to check out how's my outfit for the annual dance and dinner for the malaysian's society(i'm attending since derek is and have to as he ran for a position in the committee in the society and needs to attend the dinner to know the results, in the end of cos he got the position since it was a walkover but still, appearing is very important for PR...he is the internal secretary now...), melinda came along too.. i was suppose to go home when haz felt like skipping her tute and lecture and we decided to catch a movie b4 i head off to work..we watched princess diaries 2.. which was sweet and funny~ but just at the best part, scoop ice cream work there decides to call...(after 3 miss calls i decided to pick up the phone)
work: hello, are you coming for work?
me: um.. nope, i wasn't scheduled for today, and if this is about me taking over andrea(my colleage at work who ask me to take over her shift for the evenin as she have a report due the next day and haven started it yet) i already told her i couldn't make it as i have another job today...
work: andrea already called in sick but she didn't mention anithing about you.. are you coming or not?
me: i told you i've got another job today and i cannot come...(i'm gettin messed up and pissed...)
work: so you're not coming?
me: no.. i'm not, i cannot make it... and i wasn't scheduled for today, i checked...
work: no... there it says on your timeslot...
me:what? i don't know anything.. i cannot come today...
work: so you not coming.. fine.. *puts down*
i was left at the cinema, feeling lost, missin the best part of the movie and frantic
this manager would fire me cos i alwaes felt that she have something against me.. cutting down my hours.. hinting that i don't work well.. picking on me(kinda)... well i was prepared.. the next day she called again to ask what happened and i explained to her, honestly, i see no point in lying or wadsoeva.. i had another application form to a nearby bubble tea shop ready and actually noticed that the warner bros studio shop is recruiting and was already planning to print out the resume for them.. when on the day of meeting the manager, she cancelled the meeting...and after checking.. i'm stil rostered for comin wks ... now i'm really confused.. but i won't be seeing her.. till i don't know when.. so i will be in this state till i meet her again.. i'm absolutely excited about the idea of workin in warner bros.. you know me.. with all those tazs lying everywhere.. staff discount(i hope~ so i can get all those taz products.. and mayb even staff trips to gold coast where the headquarters, warner bros studio is~w wahahahhahah) i don't know.. till things settle down
now back to the holz, so free.. yet so busy.. don't feel like doin the pile of work waitin for me at home, i don't like my place at all, alwaes like to hide out in other pple places, out and not facing my place, since it is where all my work, my study table resides, but i feel so guilty too, not doin anithing.. i hate myself.. idiotic lazi bum.. urGhz.. i hate studies.. i needta work.. i feel that i'm burdening my family so much by studyin here.. and my course is so time consuming.. lookin at those commerce pple who alwaes have at least one day off the 5 days of sch.. i feel so envious...oh well.. different requirements i guess..
and this 2 days, i saw derek's cousin and his gf, frantically writin their thesis, since one of them is doing honours and one is in his final term.. oh my gosh.. i can't do a thing about this wadeva thesis.. the sound of it suck.. don't even ask me to write it.. think i mite juz faint and die.. over the passing year, i realise i don't like wad i'm doing at all.. all the time, i feel like quitting school.. i don't know.. even though i knew from the start that i needed to chose some course that i like, and i thought that i like this subject about pharmacy.. i realise i've chosen the wrong course, this was not wad i was thinking off.. the people are just so good and clever, i'm back to where i was.. near the last few amount the pool of people, back to where i was in dhs.. where i was struggling to keep up even when i was among the not-so-good klass... sighz furthermore i cannot fail, i cannot fail at anithing.. i have to complete this course in 4 years or else, i will end up in no where since i really doubt whether my mom can support me if i take more then 4 years to complete the course, every year, this freakin aus uni is goin to increase their price by like 10-20%... they think what, i have a gold mine beneath my house or something...
to the someone that actulli bothered to read till this part.. i congratulate u since i'm sick and tired of reading wad i'm typing.. i'm doing random whining...
yes, i whine.. so wad.. everybody says i whine.. and that's wad i am, it's natural.. u not happy u go.. everybody does it some time or another.. just that i do it more often...i use to have things the good way, where i need not whine.. at all.. my family was financially above average, happily together(not that it's not happy now.. but just not together), i score well academically and in sports, and music, i have my parents to rely on... but now wad? i struggle to keep up, i have to worry about money i see pple who are rich and just spend their money or rich and keep on saying they're poor(which pisses me off cos it seems fake...) n i have to take care of other pple.. who are older then me.. one gd eg. is the pple in my house now.. they're older then me.. but wad kinda rubbish they present me... super dirty kitchen that if i clean it today(which i realli just did) and mess it up again tml with matchsticks on the counter EVERYWHERE(as if a rubbish bin didn't exist within 30cm(which actualli does)) a ricecooker that belonged to me and anyone with common sense shld noe that rice that is cooked should be scoop out to a container and put into the fridge and wash that freaking ricecooker that doesn't belong to you and is a communal object to be used by everyone and shld not be filled with the same old cooked rice that's cooked 3days ago.. D*** it.. i miss the empty rice cooker..
there i go again.. i gotta stop.. this is pissing myself off... wad the heck..uRGhz
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
LaZi BuM~
i'm juz suCh a lazi buM.. this hav turn frm daily to monthli postings.. quite sad.. last sunday was malaysian fest...arrive there quite late.. since i have drivin lessons... oh yaH~ juz a update on how's my drivin goin.. i finish learning auto in 13 hrs.. now learning manual...n back to malaysian fest.. not that bad laH~ quite late.. had roti with dull(not hot curry)~ NICE!!! ok lah.. to a person that nearli one yr never had roti.. hahaha.. damn happY~ about to end that time even had hailstorM~ like WAHHH.. raining ice... sO cOOl~ 1st time i see got take photo with my fren's camera.. next time i take back to sg show u all.. not exactli very clear.. but stil better than nothing.. after the hail stopped.. there was rainbow.. haha.. so many weather in less than 2 hours...i stayed till the very end.. since derek was a volunteer and had to help to pack up the place.. i was standing around when they asked to build a human train to carry out the left over sponsored drinks.. there was so much k.. so after movin we get to take some home.. hahaa.. it was 100 PLUS.. like a drink that u can't realli get hold of in aust easily.. so me n derek carried 24 bottles and 48 cans back home.. can die man.. today both my arms are like gone case lo...
sIGhz.. abit the sad n depressed.. so much work.. towards mid term alreadi.. exam timetable out.. straight 5 days exam. think i gonna die.. then juz now was thinkin how much money would i have by the end of the year.. then i realise.. my account doesn't seem to have enough money to pay rent till next feb.. like since not goin to b here for jan n feb.. so need to pay the rent 1st lo.. bad planning.. aHH.. the more i think.. the more stuff i need to pay.. financial crisis.. sHeesH.. need to call mom to ask her how.. i feel so bad.. mayb hav to take money out of my workin account.. or even borrow money frm derek.. OMG.. this sUck.. aHHHHH...
sIGhz.. abit the sad n depressed.. so much work.. towards mid term alreadi.. exam timetable out.. straight 5 days exam. think i gonna die.. then juz now was thinkin how much money would i have by the end of the year.. then i realise.. my account doesn't seem to have enough money to pay rent till next feb.. like since not goin to b here for jan n feb.. so need to pay the rent 1st lo.. bad planning.. aHH.. the more i think.. the more stuff i need to pay.. financial crisis.. sHeesH.. need to call mom to ask her how.. i feel so bad.. mayb hav to take money out of my workin account.. or even borrow money frm derek.. OMG.. this sUck.. aHHHHH...
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Nearli Die..
so lazi long time never post.. why leh.. erm.. i juz said it the 1st sentence.. crazi me.. but muz post now cos i nearli died... cos by who? my dear rmmates.. i was bathing, when i came back out to the living room, it was full of gas smell... so i went near the stove, it was not yet fully close... my gdness.. terrible pple.. they cook n they didn't close it properli, so i went in to ask my rmmate lo.. then she say.. oH.. Yanri(de other gal in the apartment) say she close alreadi... then i was like.. 'like that also can..., sIghz'.. she come out n then she say 'no gas smell wad, sorri laH..' sheesh.. ignorance.. dunno wad shld i say also.. die onli lo>. ish.. sO pissed.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
sO laZi~~
see.. the whole holz i didn't post at all... hahah.. have been so lazi.. started learning driving.. not that bad.. instructor say i learn fast.. =)
surprise hit me.. i'm being hit on.. sheesh... i'm so stupid.. i was like waitin for train.. then this guy came over.. ask whether the train goes to city.. then i juz ignore him.. then he chat somemore.. then ok lo.. i juz yin chou u lah.. tok to him then when i abt to get off the train... he asked for my hp no. n can u freakin believe it? i realli gav it to him cos i hav no idea how to reject him.. sheesh.. derek scold me for being so stupid.. n his cousin say i'm becoming like his gf.. when the guy not even cute.. giv the no. onli.. dumb.. n that guy realli called.. dunno wad to say.. so the next time he called.. i throw the phone to derek.. haha.. n he settled it.. wahahaha.. dun think u all wanna noe the details though..
receive my pay frm work alreadi.. seeing money in my account.. quite happI~ ahhahaha n gettin quite fat.. since i keep on kupping ice cream frm the shop... hahahaha.. having a craving for oyster mornay at the top floor of my workplace.. sheesh.. but so ex...
that kinda summarise my holz.. been slpin, watching tv serial.. working.. slacking... got hooked on coupling.. a british comedy.. a medial between friends n sex in the city.. quite funny... gettin quite polluted frm that.. hahaha.. but it's relaxing..
n sch started on monday.. sianz.. this sem's work.. seem difficult.. omg.. hav to buck up.. last sem result juz so horrible.. siAnz.. but working hard is.. hard... ARGHHH.. mug mug mug.. mug mug mug...
surprise hit me.. i'm being hit on.. sheesh... i'm so stupid.. i was like waitin for train.. then this guy came over.. ask whether the train goes to city.. then i juz ignore him.. then he chat somemore.. then ok lo.. i juz yin chou u lah.. tok to him then when i abt to get off the train... he asked for my hp no. n can u freakin believe it? i realli gav it to him cos i hav no idea how to reject him.. sheesh.. derek scold me for being so stupid.. n his cousin say i'm becoming like his gf.. when the guy not even cute.. giv the no. onli.. dumb.. n that guy realli called.. dunno wad to say.. so the next time he called.. i throw the phone to derek.. haha.. n he settled it.. wahahaha.. dun think u all wanna noe the details though..
receive my pay frm work alreadi.. seeing money in my account.. quite happI~ ahhahaha n gettin quite fat.. since i keep on kupping ice cream frm the shop... hahahaha.. having a craving for oyster mornay at the top floor of my workplace.. sheesh.. but so ex...
that kinda summarise my holz.. been slpin, watching tv serial.. working.. slacking... got hooked on coupling.. a british comedy.. a medial between friends n sex in the city.. quite funny... gettin quite polluted frm that.. hahaha.. but it's relaxing..
n sch started on monday.. sianz.. this sem's work.. seem difficult.. omg.. hav to buck up.. last sem result juz so horrible.. siAnz.. but working hard is.. hard... ARGHHH.. mug mug mug.. mug mug mug...
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
more stuff...
took this test in tickle.. wondering true or not...
the subconscious mind test with inkblogs..
"Esther, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love
Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life - whether you are aware of it or not.
You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.
Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do."
quite true eh? hahah.. spiritual advancement.. like wow? WAD THE HECK IS THAT? nah in a grp i act as a host? hrm.. i hav been MC for stuff b4.. but.. erm.. not sure abt that.. think the next one is abit better on that point...
wow my jap name.. i rather they did the translation with my chinese name.. then it shld hav some word "yuki" in it.. cos my chinese name has the word snow.. n snow = yuki in jap.. this is weird...
well quite pissed yesterday.. cos stupid aussies... i wanted to go take my learners licence for car... then went to the office.. then they check my name in my passport... n compare the name in my bank statement.. it's not consistent.. cos they take my first name as juz "suet" n not my whole first name "suet yee esther".. then my bank statement reads "esther" as my first name.. dumb asses.. come tell me.. that's not ya name.. so nope, u can't take ya license today.. i was like.. "WHAT?" dumb pple... then told derek abt it.. he want to go argue with them.. i told him no need lah, cos i dun wan trouble.. later i go back there n take, where got face leh.. and like i never argue with them b4 like that woh.. then he get upset n start throwing his friggin temper.. say why i dun let him to help me.. alwaes push him away.. i was feelin so crap man.. wad the heck lah.not that i dun wan u to help me. .but it wun help aniwae.. dumb.. i dunno lah.. sometimes i realli dun understand why i stil with him.. temper so hot.. can't understand me... alwaes throw temper at me.. wonders whether is it that i can't bear the pain of a break up that's why i juz try to endure thru it.. but sometimes i realli wanna stay with him.. wad a dilemma... havin a bf is really lookin for trouble for yourself i think.. though there are nice times lah..~ oh well. skip this n move on..
so today b4 i go work, i went to the bank n try fix my account name lo.. pple push me here n there.. go counter.. counter say go front desk.. front desk tell me wait for manager.. manager tell me shld go back to the branch where i opened my bank account.. then or can await she go look for someone to help me.. then that person missing. she walk ard to look for her.. half way thru someone tok to the manager n she forget abt me.. finally, after half hour of pushing n waiting.. some dude see me wait so long n the bank closin soon.. come to me n ask.. so wad's goin on.. how can i help u. told him wazzup.. n he say onli choice if u dun wanna return to the orginal branch where i open my account is, i close my current one n open a new account.. crap.. that took another half an hour.. make me late for work.. "force" me to open a savings account also.. then i told him i no money to save lah.. all my money left now is use till end of yr one.. next yr then i open lah.. then he say.. juz put abit in lah.. haiyo.. keep on pushin.. i no time d.. stil wanna persuade me.. crap lah... open open lah.. i dun wanna go any later.. hope with that i can settle the pple in that office to let me take my test...
at work.. nothing much happened.. tiring as usual.. waiting to know whether i will get employed soon.. and whether they gonna pay me soon.. hahah.. waiting for the pay to go into my another bank's account..(opened another account so my mom n guardians wldn't noe i working..)
now hav one whole stack of conan cds next to me.. waiting to be watched.. i wanna make this holz an accomplishin one.. since nothin to do is boring. juz relac on the way n do stuff too.. wun feel that i'm wasting time...
the subconscious mind test with inkblogs..
"Esther, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love
Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life - whether you are aware of it or not.
You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.
Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do."
quite true eh? hahah.. spiritual advancement.. like wow? WAD THE HECK IS THAT? nah in a grp i act as a host? hrm.. i hav been MC for stuff b4.. but.. erm.. not sure abt that.. think the next one is abit better on that point...
wow my jap name.. i rather they did the translation with my chinese name.. then it shld hav some word "yuki" in it.. cos my chinese name has the word snow.. n snow = yuki in jap.. this is weird...
My japanese name is 吉国 Yoshikuni (good fortune country) 美月 Mitsuki (beautiful moon).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.
well quite pissed yesterday.. cos stupid aussies... i wanted to go take my learners licence for car... then went to the office.. then they check my name in my passport... n compare the name in my bank statement.. it's not consistent.. cos they take my first name as juz "suet" n not my whole first name "suet yee esther".. then my bank statement reads "esther" as my first name.. dumb asses.. come tell me.. that's not ya name.. so nope, u can't take ya license today.. i was like.. "WHAT?" dumb pple... then told derek abt it.. he want to go argue with them.. i told him no need lah, cos i dun wan trouble.. later i go back there n take, where got face leh.. and like i never argue with them b4 like that woh.. then he get upset n start throwing his friggin temper.. say why i dun let him to help me.. alwaes push him away.. i was feelin so crap man.. wad the heck lah.not that i dun wan u to help me. .but it wun help aniwae.. dumb.. i dunno lah.. sometimes i realli dun understand why i stil with him.. temper so hot.. can't understand me... alwaes throw temper at me.. wonders whether is it that i can't bear the pain of a break up that's why i juz try to endure thru it.. but sometimes i realli wanna stay with him.. wad a dilemma... havin a bf is really lookin for trouble for yourself i think.. though there are nice times lah..~ oh well. skip this n move on..
so today b4 i go work, i went to the bank n try fix my account name lo.. pple push me here n there.. go counter.. counter say go front desk.. front desk tell me wait for manager.. manager tell me shld go back to the branch where i opened my bank account.. then or can await she go look for someone to help me.. then that person missing. she walk ard to look for her.. half way thru someone tok to the manager n she forget abt me.. finally, after half hour of pushing n waiting.. some dude see me wait so long n the bank closin soon.. come to me n ask.. so wad's goin on.. how can i help u. told him wazzup.. n he say onli choice if u dun wanna return to the orginal branch where i open my account is, i close my current one n open a new account.. crap.. that took another half an hour.. make me late for work.. "force" me to open a savings account also.. then i told him i no money to save lah.. all my money left now is use till end of yr one.. next yr then i open lah.. then he say.. juz put abit in lah.. haiyo.. keep on pushin.. i no time d.. stil wanna persuade me.. crap lah... open open lah.. i dun wanna go any later.. hope with that i can settle the pple in that office to let me take my test...
at work.. nothing much happened.. tiring as usual.. waiting to know whether i will get employed soon.. and whether they gonna pay me soon.. hahah.. waiting for the pay to go into my another bank's account..(opened another account so my mom n guardians wldn't noe i working..)
now hav one whole stack of conan cds next to me.. waiting to be watched.. i wanna make this holz an accomplishin one.. since nothin to do is boring. juz relac on the way n do stuff too.. wun feel that i'm wasting time...
Troy
it's a little late to watch it, but yea, it's stil fine i guess.. went to watch troy yesterday nite.. it was not bad.. had trouble recognising so mani pple.. didn't realise the pathetic younger bro was "legolas" from LOTR... hahha. until near the end, he pick up the bow n wanted to shoot.. i was like.. hey that look's familiar.. did they stole the pose frm LOTR?? hrmm.. no.. eH? he looks like legolas.. like dah.. derek n winnie found it so duh that i realise it so late...wanted hector to be alive.. dun realli like agilies... wanted troy to win too.. but oh well the trojan horse story.. remember that frm pri sch or sec sch textbook.. quite cool to see things frm the textbook to reality....
shall continue later.. need to rush off somewhere...
shall continue later.. need to rush off somewhere...
Monday, July 05, 2004
euro cup 2004
phawa.. juz came back frm the pub after watchin euro cup 2004 finals, greece VS portugual.. wanted portugual to win cos.. they seem to be more famous with football? i dunno.. i noe too little abt football to be a big supporter of either side.. 4.30am went to pub to watch, many of them full already.. went to one last one.. too full.. no sits.. sit on steps.. damn pain my butt...quite borin i think.. not much action.. after 1st half went to find some other seat.. this time can sit, but too far away can't even see the ball.. i feeling damn slpy d.. then suddenli greece scored..hahha.. congrats congrats...after that boring again.. then this greece fan ran onto the field chuck the greece flag at figo.. n ran into the goal.. one whole bunch of security run after him. stupid idiot.. figo look damn pissed.. in the end.. greece win.. my frens bet 300 ringgit on portugual... oh well.. my rmmate was jumping with joy, why? cos she support greece since everyone supporting portugual.. n she bet with the currency in the chinese forum, 3000 that greece will win.. crazi gal.. dunno wadz in her mind... wadeva lah.. later got quite a lot of things to do.. so now i go finish my conan movie then go slp n start accomplishing stuff
Saturday, July 03, 2004
hRmmmm
have u ever have the feelin that the dreams are so real that u think u realli live in them, n reality becomes so "dreamish"? i recentli juz having this feeling.. crap.. all my dreams.. feel so sickishly real... terrible, juz plain terrible, not a nice feeling at all i tell ya...
yesterday, went to celebrate derek n co.'s last day of exam.. so went ta watch spiderman 2.. not a gd movie at all.. i dunno lah.. prolly cos i didn't watch spiderman 1.. n i have extreme phobias of spider.. this is juz not the kind of movie i like... keep on picking on the small little things they are doin here n there...as a result.. irritated derek.. woopss.. with his temper.. so i decided to shut up. then went to this club.. some uni society having a party there.. but.. it was sOOO dead... crap.. i gave a try to long island ice tea.... but... something went wrong in the mixing.. there was so much stuff in there.. bacardi, gin, blah blah.. couldn't remember all. but that was one of the last thing u would wanna try on earth.. according to them the drink wasn't suppose to taste that way.. oH well.. my ex-rmmate and gd fren, winnie's bf, raziel drank it up for me~ =) lucky.. dun wanna waste the drink.. but it's juz worse then medicine..after that they decided to par lan.. i followed lah.. n tried to play.. n sadly being left out thru out the whole friggin game.. gave up n juz stand there n watch.. BORING... but wad to do? finally finish playing at 4 something.. n went home.. slp till now.. crap.. caught a cold somewhere.. the mucus doesn't seem to stop flowing.. holz starts to get boring.. but work is tiring.. i wanna go ski.. but so ex n nobodi wanna go with me.. oh well..
yesterday, went to celebrate derek n co.'s last day of exam.. so went ta watch spiderman 2.. not a gd movie at all.. i dunno lah.. prolly cos i didn't watch spiderman 1.. n i have extreme phobias of spider.. this is juz not the kind of movie i like... keep on picking on the small little things they are doin here n there...as a result.. irritated derek.. woopss.. with his temper.. so i decided to shut up. then went to this club.. some uni society having a party there.. but.. it was sOOO dead... crap.. i gave a try to long island ice tea.... but... something went wrong in the mixing.. there was so much stuff in there.. bacardi, gin, blah blah.. couldn't remember all. but that was one of the last thing u would wanna try on earth.. according to them the drink wasn't suppose to taste that way.. oH well.. my ex-rmmate and gd fren, winnie's bf, raziel drank it up for me~ =) lucky.. dun wanna waste the drink.. but it's juz worse then medicine..after that they decided to par lan.. i followed lah.. n tried to play.. n sadly being left out thru out the whole friggin game.. gave up n juz stand there n watch.. BORING... but wad to do? finally finish playing at 4 something.. n went home.. slp till now.. crap.. caught a cold somewhere.. the mucus doesn't seem to stop flowing.. holz starts to get boring.. but work is tiring.. i wanna go ski.. but so ex n nobodi wanna go with me.. oh well..
Friday, July 02, 2004
~2nd probation shift~
phAwa... last nite juz did my probation shift at work.. ok lah.. my supervisors quite happy with me.. b4 i went off told me most prob i will b comin back cos they think i'm very gd *wahahhaha YEAH!* that's gd cos i secured a job for the 1 month holz.. runnin realli low on cash.. that's so friggin sad man.. had a lot of free stuff at work yesterday, reached there early, changed, n was made to put in the 'sleeves' for the cones.. the paper with the brand lah.. then start tryin to make stuff that customers order.. very scary.. scared make wrong stuff. blah blah.. but then my colleages are all nice to help n ans me wheneva i ask them.. one of the customers ordered a crunchie shake and went off to the bank to take money cos no money to pay for the drink.. then never came back.. so hahahaha.. all of us drank it up.. i had another bit of tropical smoothie cos i made too much hahahah.. so i had 2 drinks for free instead of paying for them.. at nite there was leftover hotdog.. so i was offered one b4 goin off... thot why not since i haben had my dinner yet.. my shift was from 6-9pm.. so hahah.. juz take onli.. but i think the hotdogs aren't realli nice.. the bread so hard... the sauce so difficult to make it fill the hotdog.. oh well.. see how it goes on the next shift n hopefully they can giv me confirm ans of wadz goin on, so i can plan my holz..
mom forcing me to learn driving cos she doesn't noe that i'm workin and think i'm very free now.. n within one wk of endin my exams.. i'm suppose to start reading up on next semester's material.. sorry to say i muz b out of my mind n totally not esther to do that.. i gonna play and enjoy.. n at the same time earn money.. so what my mom's money will do is pay my bills, rent n stuff. but the rest of stuff for my own entertainment, i can use what i earned..
juz was informed yesterday that one of my housemates is moving out.. she was by herself in the other room.. so have been thinkin how leh.. since she go, me n my rmmate have to puke out 300 bucks more every month to cover the moved out hsemate's share of rent.. but then i juz dun like the idea of posting ard gettin a stranger to move in.. unexpected outcome sia.. frm aug to approx nov.. 3 months.. that's alreadi 1000 bucks more.. that's HORRIBLE.. i dun hav so much to spare.. realli dunno wad to do.. but see my rmmate.. sure look at me and ask me onli.. sheesh.. how i noe leh.. n one thot hav been runnin in my mind.. worth it if i try to get the rm that my hsemate moved out of? i need some privacy frm this dear rmmate of mine.. i need some room.. but i'm not certain that i can get that since i think she wld want it too.. given her missy character.. i would most probably juz giv up n let her take it juz to keep her mouth shut.
sheesh.. holz holz.. like nothin to do.. but actualli realli a lot to do.. OMG. *faints*
mom forcing me to learn driving cos she doesn't noe that i'm workin and think i'm very free now.. n within one wk of endin my exams.. i'm suppose to start reading up on next semester's material.. sorry to say i muz b out of my mind n totally not esther to do that.. i gonna play and enjoy.. n at the same time earn money.. so what my mom's money will do is pay my bills, rent n stuff. but the rest of stuff for my own entertainment, i can use what i earned..
juz was informed yesterday that one of my housemates is moving out.. she was by herself in the other room.. so have been thinkin how leh.. since she go, me n my rmmate have to puke out 300 bucks more every month to cover the moved out hsemate's share of rent.. but then i juz dun like the idea of posting ard gettin a stranger to move in.. unexpected outcome sia.. frm aug to approx nov.. 3 months.. that's alreadi 1000 bucks more.. that's HORRIBLE.. i dun hav so much to spare.. realli dunno wad to do.. but see my rmmate.. sure look at me and ask me onli.. sheesh.. how i noe leh.. n one thot hav been runnin in my mind.. worth it if i try to get the rm that my hsemate moved out of? i need some privacy frm this dear rmmate of mine.. i need some room.. but i'm not certain that i can get that since i think she wld want it too.. given her missy character.. i would most probably juz giv up n let her take it juz to keep her mouth shut.
sheesh.. holz holz.. like nothin to do.. but actualli realli a lot to do.. OMG. *faints*
Saturday, June 26, 2004
RecaLLing...
oh well.. wanted to post this on thurs in the end never.. cos got too pissed off by my "dearest" rmmate.. well i went to work that evening.. frm 4-7.. alot of stuff to remember.. things are everywhere.. the aussie's english are so difficult to understand sometimes.. oh well.. but pple there are nice.. i made one coffee thickshake for myself.. n i screwed it up myself.. cos.. hahaha.. i put in the chocolate icecream instead of the vanilla one.. then i realise..hahaha.. but it tasted ok.. that store can be very busy at times.. so i get a little panicky.. but all of them say to me it's fine it's ya first time.. dun need to worry so much... hahahah also found out that each hour pay is about 13 bucks wahahah.. not bad not bad... going back for probation for 2 more shift then they decide whether they wan me..
n WOW.. thurs morning was crazi.. i had psychology paper at 9.20 in sch.. n the whole nite i didn't slp cos i was studying.. till like mornin.. i wanted to take a nap before i go.. n hahhaa.. oh well.. expected frm me.. i woke up at 9.35.. i was scared the freak out of me.. i went like crap crap crap.. i'm gonna fail this paper cos i overslpt wad a screwed up reason.. shit.. yea.. n by 9.40 i was down on the street, hailed a cab n rush off to sch... told the driver that i am late for exam n pls rush there by 9.50(in my uni, last entry to examination rm is 30mins after exam commence) n lucky me.. out of the 10 traffic lite i pass thru, 8 was green.. so i manage to reach there at 9.49.. last min... but 10 bucks gone lah.. but who cares man.. as long as i can take the exam.. n i manage to finish it of cos.. cos it's 100 MCQs.. my gdness...but realli thank god for that morning.. or else i'm realli a dead meat...
now my last paper is on monday.. the paper i hate the most.. sux.. but oh well.. had to pass it lah.. =)
n WOW.. thurs morning was crazi.. i had psychology paper at 9.20 in sch.. n the whole nite i didn't slp cos i was studying.. till like mornin.. i wanted to take a nap before i go.. n hahhaa.. oh well.. expected frm me.. i woke up at 9.35.. i was scared the freak out of me.. i went like crap crap crap.. i'm gonna fail this paper cos i overslpt wad a screwed up reason.. shit.. yea.. n by 9.40 i was down on the street, hailed a cab n rush off to sch... told the driver that i am late for exam n pls rush there by 9.50(in my uni, last entry to examination rm is 30mins after exam commence) n lucky me.. out of the 10 traffic lite i pass thru, 8 was green.. so i manage to reach there at 9.49.. last min... but 10 bucks gone lah.. but who cares man.. as long as i can take the exam.. n i manage to finish it of cos.. cos it's 100 MCQs.. my gdness...but realli thank god for that morning.. or else i'm realli a dead meat...
now my last paper is on monday.. the paper i hate the most.. sux.. but oh well.. had to pass it lah.. =)
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