headache and random matters

my goodness.. hahah i've been a lazy bum and not comin here to update.. not much to update on though i might wanna post my bdae photos in a bit if i'm free enuff.. i feel like i dun have anything to do, yet there's tons to do really.

Exams are over.. i'm rather satisfied.. at least i get a feeling that i will pass all... hahaha and i've already got my timetable for next sem as well, I'm officially enrolled in the following subj
Medicinal Chemistry 3A
Japanese 2
Astronomy
Astronomy sounds really exciting.. with even a night viewing project which i'm really looking forward to... but it's so sad that it's only 1 session...

Been enjoying my work as well, i'm the only one handling the shop front, so when i started off i'm REALLY REALLY nervous.. but now i'm abit better, less shaky. and one of the pharmacist even offered extra training for me. most of them just don't bother. she's really nice and i enjoy working alot with her, on other day, i work with the manager which is really stressful.. omg.. he seems more strict about things.. but i should be alright.

i might have a 2nd job, remember earlier on in the yr i got a sandwich job which employed me but dump me again after not able to fit me into their shift timetable.. they've called me up again for the holidays.. but they are really unorganised.. they called me the night when i just finish my last paper and asked, "how abt coming down to trng tml?" i say "sure.. how abt my shift times?" "erh we shall see.. " is the ans i get, i turned up for trng, no sign in book, no form no nothing. and worked for abt 2.5hrs.. n when i asked again, when i'm coming again, they are not sure. and this morning they called at 10am, asking can i go at 12pm.. i plainly rejected them.. i slpt at 4am, and is freaking slpy and got my pharm job at 5pm.. i wld not want to turn up to pharm job tired... it's more useful then sandwich making and makes more money~ muahahah.. n i abit scared la... what if they cheat me.. hahah never pay me or wad not...never even note down when i work... haiz...

and ya.. i seem to b gettin frequent headaches.. i dunno why.. abit scared.. hahah this is the profess sickness of pple studying sci or related to medicine... u get small symptoms and u start thinking of the big deadly diseases with the same kinda symptoms.. hrm.. i asked my pharmacist, but she say i shld b fine.. shldn't go running to the doc and get some MRI done yet.. hahah.. mad me...

aniwaez.. holiday.. free but not quite free, busy but not quite busy..we'll see how it goes.

Stepping into the 20s

time flies.. and before i knew it.. i've been on earth for 2 decades.... with no offence to anyone older than me.. but i feel really old now...mayb cos i hav this kinda perception on age...
0-9: u know nothing abt the world.. and basically just a innocent kid running ard, stumbling into things
10-19: u enter ya youth and fun yrs.. u make frenz... go thru thick and thin (usually exams) with them... n usually play the heck out, since this is when u are just FULL of energy
20-29: u are abt to step into the society, uni/graduation --> work + family?
30-39: if stil single --> stressed, if married --> settling down with kids? advancing higher in terms of career
40-49: usually reaching peak of career, having headaches over your full of energy kid (if existent), and near the end of 40s, ur health starts to present subtle symptoms of future diseases?
50-59: plannin for retirement, and basically waiting for it? diseases that u are going to gonna for the rest of ya life surfaces...
60 onwards: don't know.. retirement, grandchildren(if kid existed and they decide to give birth as well...) getting sick, coming in and out of hospital.. having tons of med.. and eventually death..


as i was telling kuan.. i don't really plan on living a long life... cos the longer u live.. the more pple u need to send off frm the surface of earth, the more sadness u need to endure thru to see your love ones leave ya side... the longer u live.. the more pain u will feel (that's how i reason gd pple die early.. since they need not suffer the pain of living on earth as much), the more worries u get... bLAH.. yes all this are absolutely selfish and cowardy thots.. but i don't think
i can take it...

and thinking back.. if i were to die tml (touch wood.. but we'll never noe, if it's ur turn, it's urs.. can't escape), will i feel that i've live life to my own satisfaction? i probably think hav i made a difference in someone's life in a gd way? am i.. in terms of overall.. gd even an average wld suffice ( i definitely hav done things i'm not proud of, bad/nasty/mean...etc things.. hopefully not that much till i am defined as a bad person.. haha).. anyway.. i shall stop writing sad stuff.. hahaha

today birthday is just an ordinary day for me, even after my frenz were so nice to hav my party yesterday nite so that today i can go out with derek in case he planned something... i stayed at home since derek had group meeting... oh well...

yesterday nite had steamboat party, pictures wld hav to wait.. since erm.. not that free to get it organised... was fun.... with frenz and had it at derek's place... just chattin and laffin over yummy food... had horrible time organising it and cleaning up... but is worth it...

my frens here hav decided to sponsor me on a one day trip with derek to the blue mountains as my bdea gift... derek cannot decide on wad to buy for me and puts it on hold till july when i can go n chose my own... sc says wadever i wan just name it and she will get it... kuan and fang's present is delayed (unlike prev. few yrs they mailed it over... actually really i appreciate it.. but save money.. just pass it to me when i return this yr end...)... but really present or not, i don't really mind.. if got.. of cos happy, dun hav also won't die... just the thot of wanting to giv me one is enuff already.. serious... since basically i equate it to "i'm your friend".. n i will b satisfied enuff with that.. *yawns* ok.. slpy d... exam in 2 wks... i mite pop ard sometime again...