I don't know... I think I hate myself...

WeLL... after the depressing blog last time.. i just have more bad news for myself that i've been so... inefficient in lookin for the counsellor.. till now i haven seen anione yet.. though i know i seriousli need help...

dunno why.. i have a feeling that some person(i dunno who...just a feeling k.) reading this wld feel that i trying to draw attention... gain pity... and seriousli i just wanna clarify that i'm not. think my blog is a place where i vent my frustration... whines... and blah blah.. and if this hRm.. weighs you down and makes you feel more depress, stop reading ok.

my psychological health is deteriorating... and i realise with the stress of the uni life.. i can no longer cope with my past, and even myself.. i dunno where am i heading to, wad am i becoming.. i seem to hav lost my identity. but i will sort it out soon, i hope...

in addition, i'm currentli looking ard for a new place for next yr, just gettin an idea and not realli moving to aniwhere with my very very first rmmate in australia, winnie... she's someone who i confides to here, even more then i tok to derek... my current best fren i can say... i hope that next yr, living with her... i would.. feel more at home, when i'm at home.. if u get wad i trying to say.. hahaha.. kinda confusing eh? it's just that this yr, i realli hav trouble living in the current apartment with my rmmate.. juz keeps on generating negative feelings... but with winnie.. it's different, i dunno... now we're like.. discussing how we wanna keep the place clean and blah blah next time.. looking forward to it.. new life next yr.. hopefully.. and wan to sort out my irritating problems by next yr too.. hahaha

blog next time.. tired.. gotta slp.. gd nite dudes... thankz for being there for me when i need you dudes ;)