i did it i did it i did it~ ahahahh not mis-packing anything at work.. and i actualli took initiative to ask the pharmacist to let me follow them down to the wards to take a look at what they do~ and it was juz a short trip, but i learn a whole lot of stuff~ the pharmacists are realli helpfUL~ i even saw the prison ward, ICUs, psychiatric ward, normal ward.. cOOl~ i gonna bug them to take me down again tml.. this is amazing.. yeaH~ initiative! =D
Friday, January 28, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
iF oNLy i caN a tiny weenY bit more less *TU TU TU TU TU*(the sound that u hear on TV when pple scold vulgar lang.) forgetful, blur and careless
OMG.. what did i do at work again today.. I PACK THE WRONG MED AGAIN!!.. why?? my aim for the day was.. "BECAREFUL... check CAREFULLY..so won't pack wrongly again.. make gd impressions!" happily the whole morning i didn't receive any complains~ but juz before i run off for lunch.. i hear the pharmacist shout "WHO PACK THIS ONE!?!?" then i was like "oh noooo..." hahah turn out to b me.. pack the wrong strength of med.. AGAIN..luckily the pharmacist very nice to me lah, somemore teach me how to take extra caution.. never scold me...not my first time liao... firstly there was the time of Warfarin.. 1mg and 5mg i think.i pack wrongly, then another time is the different type of inhalers...remember he say "Miss ah... pple cannot inhale solution, look properly next time" woops =P it may seem to b a small prob to ya lah.. but in my mind, i think a pharmacist cannot afford any small mistakes like this, can kill one u noe.. i shall improve~ imperfection is not an option!!! wahahah...i going crazy lah.. my aim shall carry over to tml!! or shld i say later in the morning!!
work is kinda routine.. .9 reach work, hear announcements for the day, go back up to pharmacy, feel like machine... open med box, throw med out, pack in 10s, put back in box, refill, pack med for patient..blah until lunch 2pm, finally enjoy the sensation of sitting... 3pm, end of lunch, back to machinery work, 5.30pm released!! but i muz b more careful~ FOCUUUSSS...
had lunch with sc at eastpoint today.. wanted to eat the prata~~ but in the end i in a hurry to rush back to work so failed.. so FrI shall try again~~ hahah... heard she transfering over to raffles outlet for her shop.. then i sad case liao loH.. no one pei me eat lunch. but i think it's a gd chance for her to move~
all my post very random.. suddenli juz hav urge to blog.. so juz write down wad comes to mind.. hahah forgive me for the messiness~
next this came to my mind.. i alwaes say i lazy do this, lazy to that.. actualli.. is it realli i so lazy ah.. sometimes i think i juz use lazy as excuse loh or not juz me lah.. dun u think? laziness is like useful in a huge range of subjects.. useful laH~.. i muz try to b less lazy.. or mayb try to b lazy to be lazy (like wad the heck am i tokinG??) i lost my train of thoughts.. next day remember then continue...
juz wanna make clear here that yesterday wad i posted on my blog, was not out to make pple that were involved in that "incident" to feel guilty... the person i hate the most is juz yu zheng, which seem to hav headed the whole thing.. well, at least the whole event on the day of happening.ok.. i need to stop. depressing stuff eh.. i juz realise one thing or mayb two,i never did.
1) thank sc. thank you very much. 2 times it happen, 2 times u were involved, but then somehow, i alwaes felt u were caught in the middle. u showed me the brighter side of my world
2)thanks for all pple who were involved. for allowing me to realise the darkness of the real world at such a young age. u let me realise exposing yaself makes u vulnerable, and how pple can smile so bright in front of ya, tap on ya shoulder, be ya best friend and on their mind devising some plot or wadeva. thanks.
and after writing these 2 things. i realise i stil haven learn my lesson yet.. omG. ah stil got lesson 3) never believe in "it's for ya own gd." *puke* ya like real.. well at least dun even bother to mention that 5 word to me. =P
YEAH! mind cleared~ time ta go zzz~ if not tml cannot work weLL~ jia you pple and to myself toO! ;D
work is kinda routine.. .9 reach work, hear announcements for the day, go back up to pharmacy, feel like machine... open med box, throw med out, pack in 10s, put back in box, refill, pack med for patient..blah until lunch 2pm, finally enjoy the sensation of sitting... 3pm, end of lunch, back to machinery work, 5.30pm released!! but i muz b more careful~ FOCUUUSSS...
had lunch with sc at eastpoint today.. wanted to eat the prata~~ but in the end i in a hurry to rush back to work so failed.. so FrI shall try again~~ hahah... heard she transfering over to raffles outlet for her shop.. then i sad case liao loH.. no one pei me eat lunch. but i think it's a gd chance for her to move~
all my post very random.. suddenli juz hav urge to blog.. so juz write down wad comes to mind.. hahah forgive me for the messiness~
next this came to my mind.. i alwaes say i lazy do this, lazy to that.. actualli.. is it realli i so lazy ah.. sometimes i think i juz use lazy as excuse loh or not juz me lah.. dun u think? laziness is like useful in a huge range of subjects.. useful laH~.. i muz try to b less lazy.. or mayb try to b lazy to be lazy (like wad the heck am i tokinG??) i lost my train of thoughts.. next day remember then continue...
juz wanna make clear here that yesterday wad i posted on my blog, was not out to make pple that were involved in that "incident" to feel guilty... the person i hate the most is juz yu zheng, which seem to hav headed the whole thing.. well, at least the whole event on the day of happening.ok.. i need to stop. depressing stuff eh.. i juz realise one thing or mayb two,i never did.
1) thank sc. thank you very much. 2 times it happen, 2 times u were involved, but then somehow, i alwaes felt u were caught in the middle. u showed me the brighter side of my world
2)thanks for all pple who were involved. for allowing me to realise the darkness of the real world at such a young age. u let me realise exposing yaself makes u vulnerable, and how pple can smile so bright in front of ya, tap on ya shoulder, be ya best friend and on their mind devising some plot or wadeva. thanks.
and after writing these 2 things. i realise i stil haven learn my lesson yet.. omG. ah stil got lesson 3) never believe in "it's for ya own gd." *puke* ya like real.. well at least dun even bother to mention that 5 word to me. =P
YEAH! mind cleared~ time ta go zzz~ if not tml cannot work weLL~ jia you pple and to myself toO! ;D
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
2005!! -- Part (II)
hahah~ ok.. i'm sorry.. being late to blog...shall pick it up frm where i ended
i shall try and blog in much of wad i remember frm yr start...
it wasn't a gd start lah..my gd tempered dad threw a tantrum on 1st jan...shall not further write why.. cos it's realli bad when my dad loses his temper.. so me and my mom juz went outta the place.. and went ard shopping for abit.. ate then went back home.. where the mood kinda died down.. and it's ok again.. but i realli hate to see him lose temper.. sO sCary.
next thing i remember is.. hahah. .go my cousin house play game and read comics~ routine lah...
then later in the wk when to celebrate my grandpa's bdae in the HK jockey club(a place where onli rich pple get to eat there!!) obviousli is not me family that's so rich lah.. my aunt's husband is totalli rich loh.. heard my mommy say.. her whole yr salary probably only equal to wad he get for one month.. like OMG.
before i left HK went out quite a bit with Winnie (my very first rmmate in aus, and proudly to say, my future rmmate!!), went shopping lah crap ard lah.. hahah one thing i find she damn cute is that when we go shoppin hor.. she is looking for things for me to buy.. hahaha.. go into clothes shop hor.. me still lookin then she will come to me with this stack of clothes and excitedly say to me "esther esther.. try this and this and this.. i think shld look quite nice on you~~ go go..."hahah...
aniwae.. yea.. came back and rot for a wk... n at the same time looking for something to do~
firstly i went back to dhs, to visit teachers~ mostly tan jan fee lah.. cos without her.. i couldn't hav made it to aus (results-wise...) cos my prelims result sucked.. big time... and after that went to ka chow sc's comp train~ hahah i stil cannot forget my love for home nursing (i seeing disgusted faces of sc and others who share hatred for home nursing hahaha)...
me also wrote down my name for relief teaching~ and then go home and reg online.. but sadly to say.. THEY ACTUALLY REJECTED ME!!! aHHHH... most probably cos the online form i cannot feel in probably cos there isn't a place for me to write down that i actualli hav not graduated frm uni, but juz finish yr 1 and probably lack of commitment lah.. oh well.. sad case eh..
next.. next.. got our NA outing!! hahah... i gav up on sqd outing, cos pple juz dun turn up.. lose interest... hahah.. not bad lah. juz like gathering and tok crap loh.. it's amazin to see how some hav changed and some things juz NEVER change.. haha... i shld b frank here~ hahaha hope u dudes dun mind k.. egg.. stil late and VERY much devoted to church activity, mitch, as uM.. open as eva.. , xinyu ah.. is the old xinyu lah.. no need describe.. sc.. the most changed of all.. getting so much more gentle hahah.. and girly =P haha unfortunately it was a short outing since mitch had ta leave earli.. and sc need to go jie sj pple frm perth... and egg was like 1-2 hrs late.. oh well..
i went with sc to go airport lah.. since i nothing to do anyway.. there was a gd thing and bad thing to it lah... gd thing i actualli manage to catch laura who is going to fly off to US to study.... was her mentor for intra comp i think.. not a gd one lah but at least her talents were recognised~ bad thing is.. the STUpid sTupid chee wee... it mite hav been juz a line, a joke.. a line that he didn't gav much thot to b4 he spoke.. "then u b my valentine this yr lah" (agar agar lah) we were tokin abt valentines day this yr.. and he damn sad he no gf to pei him... and this line juz came out... i wld hav jumped all over the place if this line came out like... 4-5 yrs ago.. when i was having this dumb crush on him.. a crush that crushed me. firstly i was thinking abt this the whole day... how i felt so dumb when it was supposingly one-sided.secondly, not until a few days ago while chattin with william pei(my senior in sj last time) that he reminded me wad happened to me during sec 2, that bloody incident.. was all because of this crush i had. i feel DUMb. vERY dUmb. how come my life gets so screwed. or how i let myself get screwed. dUmb. and this again brings up the thot of how terrible a person i muz b to get pple reprimanding u in that form of a manner, not once, but twice (though 2 different grp of pple and 2 different reasons) but stil.. i hate myself.. i dunno is it realli myself or wad. positively i think if i'm realli so terrible, all my frends wun hav shunned me, on the other hand, if negative, i juz think they are all too nice to shun me away... see that's why i set the resolution to solve this conflicting prob i hav with myself. i hate scoldings. i hate it when i dun do things rite.. ARgH.. and that were thots of several days ago. i'm kinda ok now.. but stil i wanna get it gone and over with. Start Afresh! (i even thought of actualli paying someone to get me hypnotized to forget all that have happened during that period of time.. am i crazy or wad? =P but i guess that's realli the last resort and if i hav to go that far to get a life back, i would actualli do it)
and we're reaching the last part~~ i've gotta announce i got my attachment in the hospital with the hospital pharmacist.. been 2 days already...hahah and my legs are totalli GONE. hahah standing for long hrs.. packing western med like a chinese doctor will do.. hopefully someday along this attachment i do get to go ard with the hospital pharmacist to see wad they actualli do. been tiring.. alot of concentration needed.. to prevent frm packing anymore wrong med.. feel so sorry that i seem to b increasin the pple's workload.. but it's a gd chance to see more and experience more~ =) that's all for now... need ta go slp soon.. i've been feeling damn slpy frm 9...OMG.. is this realli me?? =P
i shall try and blog in much of wad i remember frm yr start...
it wasn't a gd start lah..my gd tempered dad threw a tantrum on 1st jan...shall not further write why.. cos it's realli bad when my dad loses his temper.. so me and my mom juz went outta the place.. and went ard shopping for abit.. ate then went back home.. where the mood kinda died down.. and it's ok again.. but i realli hate to see him lose temper.. sO sCary.
next thing i remember is.. hahah. .go my cousin house play game and read comics~ routine lah...
then later in the wk when to celebrate my grandpa's bdae in the HK jockey club(a place where onli rich pple get to eat there!!) obviousli is not me family that's so rich lah.. my aunt's husband is totalli rich loh.. heard my mommy say.. her whole yr salary probably only equal to wad he get for one month.. like OMG.
before i left HK went out quite a bit with Winnie (my very first rmmate in aus, and proudly to say, my future rmmate!!), went shopping lah crap ard lah.. hahah one thing i find she damn cute is that when we go shoppin hor.. she is looking for things for me to buy.. hahaha.. go into clothes shop hor.. me still lookin then she will come to me with this stack of clothes and excitedly say to me "esther esther.. try this and this and this.. i think shld look quite nice on you~~ go go..."hahah...
aniwae.. yea.. came back and rot for a wk... n at the same time looking for something to do~
firstly i went back to dhs, to visit teachers~ mostly tan jan fee lah.. cos without her.. i couldn't hav made it to aus (results-wise...) cos my prelims result sucked.. big time... and after that went to ka chow sc's comp train~ hahah i stil cannot forget my love for home nursing (i seeing disgusted faces of sc and others who share hatred for home nursing hahaha)...
me also wrote down my name for relief teaching~ and then go home and reg online.. but sadly to say.. THEY ACTUALLY REJECTED ME!!! aHHHH... most probably cos the online form i cannot feel in probably cos there isn't a place for me to write down that i actualli hav not graduated frm uni, but juz finish yr 1 and probably lack of commitment lah.. oh well.. sad case eh..
next.. next.. got our NA outing!! hahah... i gav up on sqd outing, cos pple juz dun turn up.. lose interest... hahah.. not bad lah. juz like gathering and tok crap loh.. it's amazin to see how some hav changed and some things juz NEVER change.. haha... i shld b frank here~ hahaha hope u dudes dun mind k.. egg.. stil late and VERY much devoted to church activity, mitch, as uM.. open as eva.. , xinyu ah.. is the old xinyu lah.. no need describe.. sc.. the most changed of all.. getting so much more gentle hahah.. and girly =P haha unfortunately it was a short outing since mitch had ta leave earli.. and sc need to go jie sj pple frm perth... and egg was like 1-2 hrs late.. oh well..
i went with sc to go airport lah.. since i nothing to do anyway.. there was a gd thing and bad thing to it lah... gd thing i actualli manage to catch laura who is going to fly off to US to study.... was her mentor for intra comp i think.. not a gd one lah but at least her talents were recognised~ bad thing is.. the STUpid sTupid chee wee... it mite hav been juz a line, a joke.. a line that he didn't gav much thot to b4 he spoke.. "then u b my valentine this yr lah" (agar agar lah) we were tokin abt valentines day this yr.. and he damn sad he no gf to pei him... and this line juz came out... i wld hav jumped all over the place if this line came out like... 4-5 yrs ago.. when i was having this dumb crush on him.. a crush that crushed me. firstly i was thinking abt this the whole day... how i felt so dumb when it was supposingly one-sided.secondly, not until a few days ago while chattin with william pei(my senior in sj last time) that he reminded me wad happened to me during sec 2, that bloody incident.. was all because of this crush i had. i feel DUMb. vERY dUmb. how come my life gets so screwed. or how i let myself get screwed. dUmb. and this again brings up the thot of how terrible a person i muz b to get pple reprimanding u in that form of a manner, not once, but twice (though 2 different grp of pple and 2 different reasons) but stil.. i hate myself.. i dunno is it realli myself or wad. positively i think if i'm realli so terrible, all my frends wun hav shunned me, on the other hand, if negative, i juz think they are all too nice to shun me away... see that's why i set the resolution to solve this conflicting prob i hav with myself. i hate scoldings. i hate it when i dun do things rite.. ARgH.. and that were thots of several days ago. i'm kinda ok now.. but stil i wanna get it gone and over with. Start Afresh! (i even thought of actualli paying someone to get me hypnotized to forget all that have happened during that period of time.. am i crazy or wad? =P but i guess that's realli the last resort and if i hav to go that far to get a life back, i would actualli do it)
and we're reaching the last part~~ i've gotta announce i got my attachment in the hospital with the hospital pharmacist.. been 2 days already...hahah and my legs are totalli GONE. hahah standing for long hrs.. packing western med like a chinese doctor will do.. hopefully someday along this attachment i do get to go ard with the hospital pharmacist to see wad they actualli do. been tiring.. alot of concentration needed.. to prevent frm packing anymore wrong med.. feel so sorry that i seem to b increasin the pple's workload.. but it's a gd chance to see more and experience more~ =) that's all for now... need ta go slp soon.. i've been feeling damn slpy frm 9...OMG.. is this realli me?? =P
Sunday, January 23, 2005
2005!!
been a long time since i last blogged... mainly due to laziness... have tons of things to blog.. hopefully i not too lazy to finish them off.. hahah..
firstly i muz remind myself to write down wad i feel i wanna write down, regardless the pple that actually reads this~ mayb u pple think otherwise since it seems rather..too blunt.. but somehow i feel somethings need to be expressed, but mayb i can't say it rite out in ya face, or i juz wanna express(or mayb u guys wld say i juz complaining) myself....
let's start!
since it's a new year, i shall attempt to write the first ever set of resolution~ i never had this kinda habit in doin a resolution, i never bother to write it down but i think i do think abt it.. so this yr, i shall make it special and actualli list it out!
1) Try my best to be less late or not late at all! (Till now not quite successful... =( , but shall jia you!)
2)Be more thrifty in Aust, putting in consideration of how family financial condition is.
3) Change certain bad habits
4) Be more hardworking, to stay on in the course and graduate!!
5) Be nicer (generally, e.g. stop stabbing my ex-rmmate.. I shall TRY VERY VERY HARd.. )
6) Solve my past problems and start afresh~ (seek counselling when i reach aust, and stop hating myself. which again is not going quite well now.. u will noe why when i reach later part of blog)
7) Try to read/watch news everyday
8) Learn new skills (e.g. knitting (YEAH Successful alreadi haha.. juz beginning stage of it), Yoga, and Wing-Chun)
9) Try to slp at a more normal pattern =P
hRm.. oh no.. in order to satisfied my last resolution, i juz realise that it's alreadi 1.30am.. so i shld go off now and continue off tml. yea.. rest assure.. i shall continue.. hahah i promise.. gd nite pple!
firstly i muz remind myself to write down wad i feel i wanna write down, regardless the pple that actually reads this~ mayb u pple think otherwise since it seems rather..too blunt.. but somehow i feel somethings need to be expressed, but mayb i can't say it rite out in ya face, or i juz wanna express(or mayb u guys wld say i juz complaining) myself....
let's start!
since it's a new year, i shall attempt to write the first ever set of resolution~ i never had this kinda habit in doin a resolution, i never bother to write it down but i think i do think abt it.. so this yr, i shall make it special and actualli list it out!
1) Try my best to be less late or not late at all! (Till now not quite successful... =( , but shall jia you!)
2)Be more thrifty in Aust, putting in consideration of how family financial condition is.
3) Change certain bad habits
4) Be more hardworking, to stay on in the course and graduate!!
5) Be nicer (generally, e.g. stop stabbing my ex-rmmate.. I shall TRY VERY VERY HARd.. )
6) Solve my past problems and start afresh~ (seek counselling when i reach aust, and stop hating myself. which again is not going quite well now.. u will noe why when i reach later part of blog)
7) Try to read/watch news everyday
8) Learn new skills (e.g. knitting (YEAH Successful alreadi haha.. juz beginning stage of it), Yoga, and Wing-Chun)
9) Try to slp at a more normal pattern =P
hRm.. oh no.. in order to satisfied my last resolution, i juz realise that it's alreadi 1.30am.. so i shld go off now and continue off tml. yea.. rest assure.. i shall continue.. hahah i promise.. gd nite pple!
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