2005!! -- Part (II)

hahah~ ok.. i'm sorry.. being late to blog...shall pick it up frm where i ended

i shall try and blog in much of wad i remember frm yr start...

it wasn't a gd start lah..my gd tempered dad threw a tantrum on 1st jan...shall not further write why.. cos it's realli bad when my dad loses his temper.. so me and my mom juz went outta the place.. and went ard shopping for abit.. ate then went back home.. where the mood kinda died down.. and it's ok again.. but i realli hate to see him lose temper.. sO sCary.

next thing i remember is.. hahah. .go my cousin house play game and read comics~ routine lah...

then later in the wk when to celebrate my grandpa's bdae in the HK jockey club(a place where onli rich pple get to eat there!!) obviousli is not me family that's so rich lah.. my aunt's husband is totalli rich loh.. heard my mommy say.. her whole yr salary probably only equal to wad he get for one month.. like OMG.

before i left HK went out quite a bit with Winnie (my very first rmmate in aus, and proudly to say, my future rmmate!!), went shopping lah crap ard lah.. hahah one thing i find she damn cute is that when we go shoppin hor.. she is looking for things for me to buy.. hahaha.. go into clothes shop hor.. me still lookin then she will come to me with this stack of clothes and excitedly say to me "esther esther.. try this and this and this.. i think shld look quite nice on you~~ go go..."hahah...

aniwae.. yea.. came back and rot for a wk... n at the same time looking for something to do~

firstly i went back to dhs, to visit teachers~ mostly tan jan fee lah.. cos without her.. i couldn't hav made it to aus (results-wise...) cos my prelims result sucked.. big time... and after that went to ka chow sc's comp train~ hahah i stil cannot forget my love for home nursing (i seeing disgusted faces of sc and others who share hatred for home nursing hahaha)...

me also wrote down my name for relief teaching~ and then go home and reg online.. but sadly to say.. THEY ACTUALLY REJECTED ME!!! aHHHH... most probably cos the online form i cannot feel in probably cos there isn't a place for me to write down that i actualli hav not graduated frm uni, but juz finish yr 1 and probably lack of commitment lah.. oh well.. sad case eh..

next.. next.. got our NA outing!! hahah... i gav up on sqd outing, cos pple juz dun turn up.. lose interest... hahah.. not bad lah. juz like gathering and tok crap loh.. it's amazin to see how some hav changed and some things juz NEVER change.. haha... i shld b frank here~ hahaha hope u dudes dun mind k.. egg.. stil late and VERY much devoted to church activity, mitch, as uM.. open as eva.. , xinyu ah.. is the old xinyu lah.. no need describe.. sc.. the most changed of all.. getting so much more gentle hahah.. and girly =P haha unfortunately it was a short outing since mitch had ta leave earli.. and sc need to go jie sj pple frm perth... and egg was like 1-2 hrs late.. oh well..

i went with sc to go airport lah.. since i nothing to do anyway.. there was a gd thing and bad thing to it lah... gd thing i actualli manage to catch laura who is going to fly off to US to study.... was her mentor for intra comp i think.. not a gd one lah but at least her talents were recognised~ bad thing is.. the STUpid sTupid chee wee... it mite hav been juz a line, a joke.. a line that he didn't gav much thot to b4 he spoke.. "then u b my valentine this yr lah" (agar agar lah) we were tokin abt valentines day this yr.. and he damn sad he no gf to pei him... and this line juz came out... i wld hav jumped all over the place if this line came out like... 4-5 yrs ago.. when i was having this dumb crush on him.. a crush that crushed me. firstly i was thinking abt this the whole day... how i felt so dumb when it was supposingly one-sided.secondly, not until a few days ago while chattin with william pei(my senior in sj last time) that he reminded me wad happened to me during sec 2, that bloody incident.. was all because of this crush i had. i feel DUMb. vERY dUmb. how come my life gets so screwed. or how i let myself get screwed. dUmb. and this again brings up the thot of how terrible a person i muz b to get pple reprimanding u in that form of a manner, not once, but twice (though 2 different grp of pple and 2 different reasons) but stil.. i hate myself.. i dunno is it realli myself or wad. positively i think if i'm realli so terrible, all my frends wun hav shunned me, on the other hand, if negative, i juz think they are all too nice to shun me away... see that's why i set the resolution to solve this conflicting prob i hav with myself. i hate scoldings. i hate it when i dun do things rite.. ARgH.. and that were thots of several days ago. i'm kinda ok now.. but stil i wanna get it gone and over with. Start Afresh! (i even thought of actualli paying someone to get me hypnotized to forget all that have happened during that period of time.. am i crazy or wad? =P but i guess that's realli the last resort and if i hav to go that far to get a life back, i would actualli do it)

and we're reaching the last part~~ i've gotta announce i got my attachment in the hospital with the hospital pharmacist.. been 2 days already...hahah and my legs are totalli GONE. hahah standing for long hrs.. packing western med like a chinese doctor will do.. hopefully someday along this attachment i do get to go ard with the hospital pharmacist to see wad they actualli do. been tiring.. alot of concentration needed.. to prevent frm packing anymore wrong med.. feel so sorry that i seem to b increasin the pple's workload.. but it's a gd chance to see more and experience more~ =) that's all for now... need ta go slp soon.. i've been feeling damn slpy frm 9...OMG.. is this realli me?? =P