Missing Family

i wanted to not blog till i was able to finish up my sabah trip blog+photos.. but i just had to write this down...

Wed was the first day after the CNY holidays, i was suppose to go back to work. Instead, I stayed at home, to pei my dad. Really, i wanted to spend time with him... not that i wanna slack and not go to work.

I truly miss times, when u get to sit together with ya family, jus laffing, or even if u're arguing.. when i was younger, i use to think that i got use to it.. after all, it's been wad... 10 years that my dad's been away working somewhere else, and now, 3 years away from my mom. but no, instead, i realise wad i'm left with, wad i ignored, was the emptiness in me... yes some might argue that well, at least ur dad is STIL ALIVE.. some other pple's dad passed away already.. they will never see them again... but isn't it more painful.. to know that someone you care is still around, yet you cannot see them. every year i see him, i notice more white hair, i notice the aging in his behaviour and even thinking abt this wld cos a tight squeeze on my heart.. n now, my mom, disease n pain overtaking her life, age n time stealing her vision away, she can't even see my face properly at night without her specs on... even when finally, when there's the little bit of time that the 3 of us are together, sometimes, we sat ard different places of the house, doing our own stuff and eating out meals at different locations in the hse... its esp bad this yr.. thus times when finally the whole family had chance to sit together to watch DVD, to eat, all these short period of time becomes to warming and precious to me...

"human will not noe the value of things they hav, till they lose it..." which is so true.. i dunno, but somehow a very strong wish burns in my head constantly nowadays.. that one day my family can finally end up in 1 place, finally together.. sharing happy and sad times...