the bdae cake that creative pair, me and winnie, made for my "ddddearest" rmmate (sorry for the stammering.. can't even make myself say that...) 

since it's summer.. at ard 5am.. the sun starts to rise and.. amazin colours juz get mixed in the sky 

been doing some "earli" studying 

4th Paper: Physical Pharmaceutics

sighz.. cannot finish the paper ahhh... oh well.. dunno how will this go la.. last semester i spent so much time on this subj.. in the end also never score very well.. now this sem spend less time.. hrm.. hopefully it's not in direct proportion....

3rd Paper: Pharmacology

woH~ nearly failed this one last semester... dunno how i will do this semester~ lalal.. at least it's over! 4 more papers.. hahah

read both kuan and fang's blog.. they were both writing abt this guy fren that they hav... quiet, but hav amazin character... it struck me thinking.. there are these meaningful people ard(sadly i dun notice any ard me)... do i hav any? mayb.. mayb not.. i don't know.. i'm a paranoid and i'm skeptical about trusting pple.. hahaha i'm serious.. not that i'm announcing i dun trust all my friends.. but ya.. there are times when i doubt do they really mean wad they say... or is there hidden meaning.. anyway.. shan't go into that... i hungry liaO.. go cooK~

yesterday while studying.. there were so many insects at my corner.. tat i ended up killing tons of baby flies and catchin another 10 or so of them... also caught a moth and probably a termite queen (super big and can fly.. but look like ant..).. my hse like got magnet to attract the bugs.. omG. yuCks.

anyway.. found an article for kuaN~
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/177772/1/.html

2nd paper: Pharmaceutical Microbiology

hRm. wad can i say.. i spent so much time on wad i thot is the shortest topic of all.. hahah. .oh well. me and my time management issues... any way.. have to go work hard for my next 2 subj.. didn't realli touch.. hahahah.. DIEEE... hope i can pass.. mUAHAHA

oh and it's so damn hot at the exam hall today.. left earli.. cos dunno how to do liao and so damn hot cldn't think anymore.. might as well go home~~ lalala

look who they caught~

oMG.. look who they caught.. feel pretty lucky being in aust sometimes.. dun realli hav any disease.. and the terrorists were caught too~...

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/177519/1/.html

Sex-po!!

woohoo~ sexpo is coming to singapore... OMG.. this is like such a big step forward.. i went to sexpo with my friends here think last year... don't think it's the same style as here though since it's realli open and stuff like that.. they had like peep shows, top-less model taking pics with u (for a price of cos), porn star dancing blah.. i shall disgust(or excite) anyone further~ wahahahha

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/177390/1/.html

things may not always seems wad it really is...

有一對情侶，男的非常懦弱，做什麼事情之前都讓女友先試。女友對此十分不滿。
一次，兩人出海，返航時，颶風將小艇摧毀，幸虧女友抓住了一塊木板才保住了兩人的性命。女友問男友："你怕嗎？"男友從懷中掏出一把水果刀，說：怕，但有鯊魚來，我就用這個對付它。"女友只是搖頭苦笑。
不久，一艘貨輪發現了他們，正當他們欣喜若狂時，一群鯊魚出現了，女友大叫：’我們一起用力游，會沒事的！"男友卻突然用力將女友推進海里，獨立扒著木板 朝貨輪游去,並喊道："這次我先試！"女友驚呆了，望著男友的背影，感到非常絕望。鯊魚正在靠近，可對女友不感興趣而徑直向男友游去，男友被鯊魚凶猛地撕 咬著，他發瘋似地衝女友喊道："我愛你！"
女友獲救了，甲板上的人都在默哀，船長坐到女友身邊說："小姐,他是我見過最勇敢的人。我們為他祈禱！""不，他是個膽小鬼。"女友冷冷地說。"您怎麼這 樣說呢？剛才我一直用望遠鏡觀察你們，我清楚地看到他把你推開後用刀子割破了自己的手腕。鯊魚對血腥味很敏感，如果他不這樣做來爭取時間，恐怕你永遠不會 出現在這艘船上....."

1st paper: Pharm Prac is OVVVEERRR

YEAH... survived my first paper.. think i did alrite.. shld b able to pass.. now hav to work on for the next few subjs...

i proudly announce that i'm very guai this semester (at least during the exams)!! why? cos i was able to stop myself from compulsively writing my obscenely neat notes... i feel like i did more.. kinda.. though stil feel quite insecure from not reading everything down... wahahah.. ok gotta get outta here before i write too much again

PS i can't wait for harry potpot movie~~ they had their premiere in england yesterdaY~~ waHH i wanna watch~

my future?

hrm.. as my mom mentioned.. they are really opening something BIG ard 2008...
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporebusinessnews/view/176967/1/.html

will i end up there? will i be even near graduation by then? sigh.

3 days (incl. today) to 1st paper

see.. i told u all that i hang out here only when exams come.. times when i'm not suppose to come.. OMG.. it's 3 days to exam.. and i've replayed the whole scenario of last yr over again.. i juz roughly done with 1 unit (aka module in sg) and i've like wad.. 6 more to gO~.. OMG OMG OMG OMG. juz came here to whine. as usual.

oh oh.. and i was toking to fang and kuan yesterday.. ahahah fun.. and i had voice conversation with kuan since she's the one with the mic.. miss tokin with sg frenz.. need to tune back to singlish channel.. kinda miss u guys~ always read sg frenz blog and feel i'm missing out.. i dun understand all those new terms that u guys use.. oh well.. that's the price i hav to pay.. not that i'm not enjoying in aust.. making new frenz and stuff.. but.. stil.. i won't "only want the new and throw away the old" (chinese saying but u noe how bad my han yu pin yin is laH~) aniwaez.. time to get back to work.. i dun wanna say that "it's my fault and i'm so regretting that i didn't study enuff."

jia you to all havin exams!!

nice passage

A well-known speaker started off his seminar
>   by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200,
he asked,
>
>   "Who would like this $20 bill?"
>
>   Hands started going up.
>
>   He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of
you
>
>   but first, let me do this.
>
>   He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
>
>   He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
>
>   Still the hands were up in the air.
>
>   Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
>
>   And he dropped it on the ground
>
>   and started to grind it into the floor with his
shoe.
>
>   He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
>
>   "Now, who still wants it?"
>
>   Still the hands went into the air.
>
>   My friends, we have all learned a very valuable
lesson.
>
>   No matter what I did to the money, you still
wanted it
>
>   because it did not decrease in value
>
>   It was still worth $20.
>
>   Many times in our lives,
>
>   we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt
>
>   by the decisions we make and
>
>   the circumstances that come our way.
>
>   We feel as though we are worthless.
>
>   But no matter what has happened or
>
>   what will happen, you will never lose your value.
>
>   Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,
>
>   you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you
>
>   The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or
who we
>
>   know,
>
>   but by WHO WE ARE.
>
>   You are special- Don't EVER forget it."
>
>   If you do not pass this on, you may never know the
>
>   lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to,
>
>   or the hope that it can bring.
>
>   Count your blessings, not your problems.

article~

saw this article in channelnewasia..
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_world_business/view/176913/1/.html

how far off can microsoft get man.. soon pple can juz stay at home and become humongous couch potatoes...

i've fallen.. before the evil disease called... COLD.

raRRGhh.. i've fallen sick. again. weather had been pretty crappy over here in aus, hot and rainy, hot and rainy, plus the extra stress i've got for this exam... urGhz...

one thing bad abt knowing more abt diseases.. u noe wad u can or cannot do..

i've learnt that all those cold medicine on the market is nothing but does only symptomic relieve. i never knew that... as the lecture notes say "a cold last for 7 days, take medicine for cold, it will still last for 7 days".. juz that the medicine will relieve symptoms like block nose and stuff for u.. so u won't feel that horrible...

it all started when i got this "urky" feeling of mucus or something stuck at the back of ur nose and not yet down to ur throat... then overnight this built up.. it's juz continuously irritating me and caused me to have a itchy throat this morning.. then the mucus builds up but not enough for me to blow it out.. so it's juz a stuffed up nose with urky stuff irritating me and a itchy throat... wad else.. omG... how am i going to study with this irritating cold.. distracting

i wanna study.. or shld i say, i NEED to study. i'm on extra stress condition this period of time... for the whole wkend i have been feeling that the exam is coming like tml.. but it's more like next wk.. but i juz feel outta time.. i dun wanna hav wad happen to me last semester to repeat again.. i wanna go on to Yr 3 without having a big headache over wad subj i can't take and how long my course is getting delayed and how much more money am i costing my parents to pay...

contradictory to all comments abt how rich i am.. i am not... my parents can barely support me to let me study here...i'm like one of the poorest singaporean i can find here among my other sg-mates.. all the others live in hsese and condos.. and me.. juz in a HDB flat... thus i need to graduate.. fast.

winnie and derek is being extremely supportive of me.. but i feel so weak (more of mentally) i can't push my self to study.. i'm so gonna regret it again. i'm juz a crapper as usual eh.. juz tok and no work. I HATE HATE HATE this. no. i'm not gonna let so many pple down, nor let myself down.

*breathe in**breathe out* ok.. i'm gonna go slp now and wake up tml and do QUALITY AND EFFICIENT STUDYING... hope i can do it... oh no.. it's I CAN DO IT. *psychoing myself... *

my exam timetable is HORRIBLE.

7th: Pharm Prac (Theory)
9th: Pharm Microbiology
10th: Pharmacology
11th: Physical Pharmaceutics
14th: Medicinal Chem
15th: Biochem (need to score 60 and above or i'm in big trouble)
16th: Physiology
17th: Pharm Prac (Oral)

basically all need to pass.. special attention to biochem needed... anyway.. jia you to all other pple who are going to hav exams..

Desensitised.

random post out of no where.. when who cares anyway.. bet i was missing for so long no body even come in to check anymore.. anyway...

i am sort of desnsitised...
this was the idea brought up by one of my wing chun instructors.. he tells me that after all the exposure to sparring(like fight each other) during trainings, i will not be as stunned if suddenly some dude on the st juz decides to throw me a punch... and he demostrated as he juz decide to throw me a punch after that sentence.. and i didn't even like move back or wadeva.. i juz stood there... doesn't realli prove his point cos i noe that the instructors can't really whack us.. since we're so much weaker compared to them... dah.. they can kill me very easily at the level that they're at...

anyway.. realise i'm desensitised in another way.. other then pple beating up each other, yesterday night i was studying.. suddenly i heard screaming.. but i ignored it.. like totally filtered it... since i live in the city and there are juz tons of drunkens and party animals at nite that like to scream and shout and sing whereever they go.. annoying at first and now use to it and just filter it out.. not until like the screaming continued for like 5mins then i realise this may indicate something wrong.. looking out of my window, i can see a well-lit alley... there's this 2 gals there on the floor.. screaming away.. don't know what's happening.. soon pple frm the opp apartment started to come out of their aptment and look down.. pple on the st went to check out wadz happening.. i still dunno wad happened.. robbery? rape? no idea... anyway their frenz reached after a while and 1 of the gals juz kept on crying and crying...

sadly to say.. i'm desensitised to danger of other pple in the city... if something like a rape was happening.. it wld hav helped if i check it out right away and called the police since there's a police station like 2-3blks away... not too faraway.. might hav caught the rapist or something.. living in the city realli seems to be a bad idea eh... hrm i dunno.. anyway.. suddenly thot of this and juz wanted to blog it

now back to studying.. 1.5wks more. URGHZ

you noe there's something wrong with you when you type your uni log in all the username fields that you reach... even for bloggin...

WAHHH.. bOO pple.. realise something.. i'm back and bloggin only when it's near exams or when i'm going mad frm nearly due assessments... blah. been missing for awhile Sept was a busy month for me.. i even missed a possible chance of meeting chee wee at the sydnye airport when he was here for his airforce trng....

2 wks frm my 7 papers + 1 oral exam, i shld b stressed.. but i'm oppressing my stress... i'm trying to make myself not stress.. but i need some stress as well.. not too much, not too little.. juz enuff to push me to study and score in my exams.. guess that won't ever happen... it's me afterall...

been thinking alot.. been reading tons of blog.. having tons of comments.. but never able to express myself properly and ending with just not saying out stuff.. cos it's a mess... my brain seems to be breaking down, my short-term and long-term memory seems to deterioate at a exponential rate...

was chattin with my hsemate, winnie here when we were saying that we have NO LIFE, NO LIFE here in uni in aus.. pple always says how much fun it is, but we never exp that.. nothing like that.. probably because both of us don't really drink nor club.. we read our fren's blogs frm our home country and they seem to be having quite a bit of fun.. like for me.. i see all you guys having OGs... orientation camps... things i won't ever experience.. but i do see that we share the pains of uni.. hahah tutes... exams.. not that i'm happy that u are suffering too, but happy that i'm not alone....

rargh.. hungry.. ok.. just wanted to drop by since it's been awhile that i come by... i look forward to the end of term here and to return to sg, and meet up with tons of pple.. i've been able to find back some of my pri sch friends.. so yea.. i'm gonna meet them.. after at least 5-6 years not meeting them...

ok ok.. go eat lunch.. then have to head to uni already.. sobz.. last wk of uni..

PS one of my course mate sound like Andy Lau when he sings.. OMG.. when he sings "Wu Jian Dao" i nearly fainted.. cos it sounded so alike.. wahahhaha....

I fell down.. but i'm gonna brush off my knees and walk on...

my line for the day..."if one don't pick up themselves after they fall down, they would juz get trampled all over by pple that were walking after them"

talked to my mom last night, she told me that pharmacy/pharmaceuticals line in around 2008.. that's when i'm graduating.. i shall try my best.. work harder then i ever had.... as much as i hate uni, my rmmate.... i'm still marching towards my goal.. shall now let some pple like my rmmate step all over me... wahahahhaha...

wk 5 is starting.. OMG... i'm so behind schedule.. and wk 6 is beginning of assessment..OMG OMG OMG.. ok.. i shld get outta here.. and start studying..(more like start behaving like a geek... wahahah)

PS why geek? cos it seems like in uni.. u can't really depend on ur brains.. hardwork takes up like 80% of how well u do... at least in my uni it works that way...

stressed? depressed? going mad? i dun noe...

hRm. wk 4 of semester 2 for me has started.. damn it.. i hate studying.. after a whack on my head frm the failure of my stupiiid biochem.. i hav no choice but work harder.. but it's seriously squeezin me dry... i put strict restrictions to myself during the wk.. NO MORE GAMES.. and i keep to it.. stil i'm not gettin anywhere.. since all the game playing time now goes to procrastinating and not actually doing much...sighz... furthermore.. i hav one more big obs to cross.. my compulsive behaviour in writin neat notes(and i practically copy out every single word outta the lecture notes + my notes in lecture + extracts frm textbk).. many pple are advising me to drop it.. as much as i noe that this may be taking too much time and not efficient at all.. i juz can't get over it.. it's... i dun feel right at all if i don't do it neat enough and informative enough.. thus resulting in a 4 hr notes writing for a 1 hr lecture.. I NOE I NOE... it's BADDDDD... i will try my best to suppress that behaviour.. can't change it, but i shall try to reduce the magnitude of it...

anyway.. on a hrm.. better(not sure is bad or good?) note...i've officially rejoin SJ as in that i've got my uniform and my own personal FA kit.. juz went for a duty like the big sg walk(or something... i can't rem the name) on sunday... feels gd to wake up early in the morning and going for duty again.. (kinda.. juz the fresh air and the idea of doing the duty, not the waking up at 4.45am part.)

i wanna go touring in Aus.. i'm planning to go to blue mountains (the mt is not blue.. and i hav no idea why they're called blue).. aniwae..seems like i'm organizing the trip... well i hav no idea when will that take place... also also.. i wanna go to the floride in Canberra... it's nearing spring time and flowers bloom... and at canberra u hav like FIELDS of tulips outstretch in front of u... fantastic view.. this is my first time going.. hope i do make it to canberra(cos i said i wanna go last yr.. in the end it didn't happen)... lastly me and mel(melinda frm sg) are plannin to go down to the countryside named Tamworth... since both our NS friends(chee wee is in aus...) are like trng there for 4 wks... i wanted to head down when DJ was here.. but then a bit the weird lah.. me go down alone.. at least this time got mel..trip is not confirmed again.. but we'll see...

aniwae.. time back to studying.. most of u guys are in uni now thus i wish u all luck.. i seriously hate uni.. sobz.

missin for one month.. but i won't bother to fill in the gaps

as usual.. i never ever did achieve wadeva i wanted to do durin the holz and sch has already restarted.. is in a mess currently.. got issues to settle... or plainly saying.. i failed one subj and I DON'T KNOW WAD IS GOIN TO HAPPEN.. so don't ask me.. might update if i manage to find out more..

failin this subj is really my own fault.. but it does make me think.. u noe the results frm other subj.. like some subj i did really finish(or kinda) study them.. but the score doesn't come out right at all... wadz wrong here.. is it a problem of intelligence?(can't help that can i?) or studyin method... or really my memory problem... i dunno.. i'm kinda lost here.. don't know who can i approach for this kinda prob.... though i cld already foresee some replies comin frm pple:"u noe.. if u're juz not the clever kind, study harder... like the chinese saying, use hard work to make up for the bit u don't hav"... i personally believe it's the memory problem.. when i say i have memory prob.. i seriously hav one... any way.. i shld stop whining.. and get things done.

LAZINESS hAve taken mE this Far. nOw It's tImE to StarT pUshinG....time to sacrifice some joy and entertainment as a punishment to my poor performance. GO GO GO!