Monday, August 15, 2005

stressed? depressed? going mad? i dun noe...

hRm. wk 4 of semester 2 for me has started.. damn it.. i hate studying.. after a whack on my head frm the failure of my stupiiid biochem.. i hav no choice but work harder.. but it's seriously squeezin me dry... i put strict restrictions to myself during the wk.. NO MORE GAMES.. and i keep to it.. stil i'm not gettin anywhere.. since all the game playing time now goes to procrastinating and not actually doing much...sighz... furthermore.. i hav one more big obs to cross.. my compulsive behaviour in writin neat notes(and i practically copy out every single word outta the lecture notes + my notes in lecture + extracts frm textbk).. many pple are advising me to drop it.. as much as i noe that this may be taking too much time and not efficient at all.. i juz can't get over it.. it's... i dun feel right at all if i don't do it neat enough and informative enough.. thus resulting in a 4 hr notes writing for a 1 hr lecture.. I NOE I NOE... it's BADDDDD... i will try my best to suppress that behaviour.. can't change it, but i shall try to reduce the magnitude of it...

anyway.. on a hrm.. better(not sure is bad or good?) note...i've officially rejoin SJ as in that i've got my uniform and my own personal FA kit.. juz went for a duty like the big sg walk(or something... i can't rem the name) on sunday... feels gd to wake up early in the morning and going for duty again.. (kinda.. juz the fresh air and the idea of doing the duty, not the waking up at 4.45am part.)

i wanna go touring in Aus.. i'm planning to go to blue mountains (the mt is not blue.. and i hav no idea why they're called blue).. aniwae..seems like i'm organizing the trip... well i hav no idea when will that take place... also also.. i wanna go to the floride in Canberra... it's nearing spring time and flowers bloom... and at canberra u hav like FIELDS of tulips outstretch in front of u... fantastic view.. this is my first time going.. hope i do make it to canberra(cos i said i wanna go last yr.. in the end it didn't happen)... lastly me and mel(melinda frm sg) are plannin to go down to the countryside named Tamworth... since both our NS friends(chee wee is in aus...) are like trng there for 4 wks... i wanted to head down when DJ was here.. but then a bit the weird lah.. me go down alone.. at least this time got mel..trip is not confirmed again.. but we'll see...

aniwae.. time back to studying.. most of u guys are in uni now thus i wish u all luck.. i seriously hate uni.. sobz.

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