today.. spent the whole day watching dvd/vcd... one line i picked up is the subject.. dunno.. thinkin abt my studies again... time after time during the semester.. i escaped. i ran away frm studying... i lost... as usual with me.. announcing how i will work hard wadsoeva(though i did work harder).. i dunno wad lays ahead.. but i will try to not run away.. i will try to study thru this holz... i will try and fight for a chance to b able to take more subj next semester... while back here.. even only for a few days.. i can see my mom is barely hanging on.. i cannot waste anymore time/money... i need to graduate and work... sighz... i understand my situation might be better than some that cannot even pay for a local uni.. but i cannot turn back anymore.. i'm already swimming midway to the destination... i stop, i wld soon tire out and drown.. i turn back.. it's a waste of time and energy.. so all i can do is move on forward... this last sem.. i noe that i can change wad i cldn't change.. like my habit of writing super neat notes.. so.. yup. i can change.. as long as i hav the will to.. this is abit far.. since next semester is next mar.. but need to start changing my mindset.. esp. for biochem... or else i won't ever pass...
anyway.. startin to work again tml.. aiming to b careful.. not make mistakes.. and learn more or reinforce wad i learnt this yr too.. hahah.. need to work hard!!
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